tonight is the first ramadhan.. it is not easy.. i know i have muslim friends here.. but all of them are malaysians and singaporeans.. when they chat among themselves.. i feel left out.. its not their fault.. sometimes i don't know what to say when they talk about their country, like ramadhan season..all the food festivals.. it makes me miss my country.i miss being around bruneian.. in fact i miss being me.. i mean.. the fun me.. i feel the real me is still in the shelf, locked. i feel fun around people i love.. it is not that i don't like my new friends here... don't get me wrong.. they are great.. times like this, i want to be pampered, so bad.. and being around people who understand me very well... i know i'll find those type of people here somehow. it is just the matter of time..
i want to phone my mom.. but i don't dare to.. i know i will burst into tears once i hear her sweet peaceful voice..
i miss my family, my boyfriend, my cats.. my girls.. ramadhan surely won't be the same without all of you..
Dariah; 8:16 PM
