i won't start doing things, unless everything is perfect and ready to go
i am scared of my own capacity; i am not scared of failure, i am scared of success
when people know your ability and capacity, YES there is pressure to be fabulous
Sunday, February 28, 2010
gosh, there were lots of things going through my mind today..
the other day i went out with my girls.. Syam told me about her experience in the gym. she mentioned about those gym equipments, weights, studios... i honestly had some tears in my eyes, gosh i miss THE GYM... that is my playground.. my creativity come bursting out when i see those machines... thinking of the programs that i could subscribe to my clients.. gosh.. the adrenaline rush, the feeling-good after a good workout...
i am a Personal Trainer no matter how much i tried to lie to myself but deep down, i would love to be a Successful Personal Trainer
Dariah; 3:29 PM
if i was given one wish, what that would be?
ok, lets see...
i have a wonderful man, my job is ok.. i can support myself.. my mental/physical state is at optimum level.. i have loving sisters, protective brothers.. fun nieces and nephews.. beautiful girls... so what more can i ask?
there is this one thing though i always hope for... i wish to be able to sing..
there are countless love songs, lullaby, moving songs i wish to sing to my love ones... inspirational and motivational songs to share.. there were times when you want to say/express your thoughts but you just couldn't put them in words - lost for words when you were mesmerized. so many beautiful/meaningful lyrics and so many of them could actually summarize my feelings, my journey, my past&present as well as my hopes&dreams... it would be just great if whenever i got these feelings i could just put them in a song, and sing it..
having a good voice is not like you can get out of a box..
it is just a thought.. been listening to good songs lately..
(ehem2) mun tulis rah BIBD WISH CAMPAIGN manang ka ni ah? wish for a good voice? hahaha ada jua kana umban selipar jamban
Dariah; 1:26 PM
Saturday, February 27, 2010
i was browsing through my history, through my blog.. looking back the times when i was in Aussie... it was a BitterSweet memory.. a lot Bitter than Sweet i must say..
i remember when i decided to go to Perth, it was like 3 weeks before the University Orientation Day. 3 weeks to get the Offer letter, MedicalCheckUp, Funds, Visa and many2 more.. and the priceless moment as my plane landed to Perth, i said to myself "gosh, what did i put myself into? am i really here? alone? by myself? how on earth am i going to go through this?"
seriously it was not planned out thoroughly. days before i made up my mind to study abroad, i approached my parents, i told them "mum i want to go to Australia to do SportScience Degree".. then, time didn't wait for no man... i was on my way leaving Brunei, leaving my family, love ones, friends.. gosh...
Arifin especially was having a hard time digesting the fact that i was flying off within weeks.. on top of that it was before our birthdays... again, what was i thinking?
hahaha.. all the things i did when i was a student, i don't really remember how i came up with it.. all i could remember was that i had an immense amount of curiousity and overflowing drive to prove everybody that i will reach dreams by all means necessary. my dreams sometimes doesn't involve big expensive cars, house.. lots of money.. sometimes it was about self-fulfillment and something to recall back and say "yeah.. i've done that.. i've done it all"
so being a teacher was my dream? i won't say it was.. but i am enjoying it so far... let just say this is just a detour.. or perhaps?
you can never be happy with whatever you've accomplished if you always aim for a tangible reward and acknowledgement in the end
so, aim for a priceless goal... self-satisfaction that is indifinite this definitely would be a great story to tell my kids someone who could look up to me and say "i'm so proud of you" perhaps MY GOAL is 'to inspire' regardless in what way i deliver
Dariah; 10:40 PM
ok, i was planning to go out with the girls for a light shopping but i ended up falling sick :(.. nyeh..
there i was, watching tv... feverish...
i felt alot better knowing that my ultimate favourite TvShow was on tonight at 9. Lo and behold ProjectRunwaySeason6 - AllStarChallenge premiered tonight at 9pm on Channel 707 :D :D... love Love LOVE...
this show gives me all the delightful feelings i thirst for: laughter, inspired, innovative, creativeness, competition.. ahhhhhh love Love LOVE...
definitely a-feeling-good show... yeah, i miss you ProjectRunway...
yeah i know PR is actually delayed i tried to watch them on YouTube but full version was unavailable so i had lost patience and just wait for it on TV :) worth the wait
Dariah; 10:16 PM
AI season 9
my top 3 favourite: Andrew Garcia, Casey James and Didi Benami
and love Andrew arrangement to this song
his other originals
casey james: top 12
Casey James; hollywood week
Didi Benami: top 12
Didi Benami; hollywood week
Dariah; 1:29 PM
happy belated birthday Hajah Hirwaniza~~
don't kept us waiting :D :D
Dariah; 1:28 PM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
ok, lets change the vibe here...
atubah (i miss using this word)... heheh
tadi aku jalan sama Arifin :D :D membali almari.. hehe bukan "meliat2".. ani, meliat-tarus-bali.. Arifin saw this nice wardrobe last week and he said that i might like it.. well, it turns out i LOVE it.. it has all the requirements so i bought it :)
he knows better, and that happens all the time.. kinda scary but true.. i'm just fortunate i guess.. so supposingly i don't have to be there when he shops for me.. ohohohooo no wait... of course i am going to be there whenever he shops for me.. c'mon!! shopping and Dariah get along very Very well :)
ok, i am in a good mode..
Dariah; 10:33 PM
sigh...
working on Friday... WHOLE day... i am working on Friday... a holiday for most people.. but i am working on a Holiday... on a Friday..
ok ok, can you tell that im very the mengusut tahap dewa dewi?
sigh..
bigger sigh
humongGus sigh
Dariah; 6:47 PM
Monday, February 22, 2010
something happened at work today.. it kept me smiling (..sampai ke telinga)
i am one of the teachers who:
is strict, has a loud voice, is dead serious with her rules.. .. and her students have no choice but to live by her rules.
here is the thing
my kids say hi whenever i see them, they joked around, they took me seriously, ... and the amount of respect i received was just beyond my expectation.
well, i don't just scold them with no valid reason.. i try not to make my kids hate me.. although, at some point i did say to myself "i rather have my students hating me rather than knowing they did not succeed when they were still under my supervision"
so i guess i must did something right :) it was nice to get acknowledge for a job well done once in a while.
i can't remember when was the last time people made me blush
Dariah; 8:43 PM
Friday, February 19, 2010
dangani ku ketawa bah
Dariah; 8:57 PM
i hate it when i couldn't control my schedule
i hate it when my days are booked with JUST work
i hate it when my weeks are booked a month in advance
i hate it when my relaxing time being postponed
i hate it when ALL i can think of is work
i just hate the things i hate
i hate it when i keep on typing the things i hate
i'm bitter very
no good words will come out after this sentence
Dariah; 1:30 AM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
aku nyamal arini.. ahhhuuuu and not in a good mood at all
watched this
hehhee
Dariah; 9:59 PM
Monday, February 15, 2010
tatkala aku buang stress.
my sister introduced me to Akinari, a boy from MD. very talented. he shows his work of art in YouTube. clips below are a few of my favourites.
Dariah; 7:20 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
segala yang berlaku, segala perbuatanku, niat asal ingin membantu, ingin menyenangkan hari2mu..
tapi didepanmu hanya terserlah aku yang salah, hanya nyata perkara2 yang aku bantah, tapi pernahkah terlintas difikiran, apa yang ku lakukan atas kasih sayang penuh belas kasihan.
memang betul memang aku yang tegas, tapi mereka yang lain tidak mampu bertindak balas, pernahkah terfikir bila ada pertelingkahan, tiada orang berani tunjukkan kebenaran, jadi aku cuba tampil kehadapan, mencari kedamaian, hilangkan perkelahian..
dari dulu aku sentiasa hairan, kenapa keluargaku tidak seperti kawan2, kenapa ibu dan anak berpegangan tangan, keluarga sepakat tiada ketegangan, jadi aku berdoa kepada tuhan, aku juga menginginkan, keluarga bahagia seperti kawan2 seperjuangan..
dia kata dia menangis keranaku, pernahkah tertanya? aku jua menangis kerananya
Dariah; 11:33 PM
Friday, February 12, 2010
today is a Friday the 12th.. in exactly 9 months i would be someone's wife :)
Dariah; 9:57 PM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
preview few minutes of happiness with the presence of ice-cream.. hehehe
Dariah; 11:01 PM
Sunday, February 07, 2010
hehehe bum mentioned about my email address made the girl from my previous post confused me with Miley Cyrus.. so here it goes
my email address has "smiley" in it.. sooo.. perhaps "sMILEY" should explain the confusion? hahahha
Dariah; 8:25 PM
someone random IM me just now.
Nur Farzana: Hi Dariah: hai.. who is this?.. do i know you?.. Nur Farzana: ur biggest fan Dariah: ? haha.. don't play with me~~ Nur Farzana: whats ur name? Dariah: how could you be my biggest fan not knowing my name?.. Nur Farzana: u r miley cyrus right? Dariah: HAHAHAHA... no i am not.. Nur Farzana: damn wrong ppl! nvm then bye~
no comment hahaha
Dariah; 3:39 PM
Saturday, February 06, 2010
AKU.INDA.SUKA.CERITA.HANTU :S :S ..... BE-RA-BIS
baru ani bagas liat Movie Phobia, kaka Lia bali DVD Phobia dari Miri... and this is not even the second one..
atu GILA!!! few seconds into the movie.. membari takut udah.. and i was like.. "...eeee inda jua cali ni.." hahahahah
wish siti-lewey could join us just now... :P
antah eh cerita ah!! i blurred my vision by looking through my translucent glass.. hahaha.. ermmm.. cam aku suruh kaka rani cerita saja arah ku apa yang aku inda-nampak-dengan-sengaja..
ngalih ku liat movie atu ehhh..
inda-mau-liat-cerita-antu- LAGI!!!
Dariah; 11:23 PM
kamu... atubah.. ada this blog jual2 baju... not bad lah baju2 nya..
i introduce you Atiqah... she was my student last year, i was her Form Teacher. one time, she approached me and asked to take a photo of myself.. i was like "huh? why?" hahaha.. i don't get that everyday~
then, not long time ago she came to see me again. excitedly she told me she got Pangkat 1, aggregate 5 for UGAMA exam. WOW!!! that was just amazing.. i got 9 aggregate.. i am so proud of her.. for the fact that came to see me and share the great news, i was so touched..
thanks for the photo :)
Dariah; 8:55 PM
Atubah, aritu aku jalan2.. ermm sorang bah.. awal2 sedih ku.. rasanya macam time aku di Perth.. :( sekali aku membawa rasa ke Ego Mall... then~~~~ HUWAAAAHHHHHHHHH tetiba awan kelabu ditiup angin, sinar matahari mula kelihatan.. eseh~~
aku berBelanja... ermmmm Dariah-style... kekekeke...
about two hours after, my girls decided to accompany me because aku bunyinya ke-she-yan awal2 atu...
minum2 arah Gripps... Nurul, Syam (eerrrmm semua urang kenal kamu kali udah ah) minuman kami (ala ala Nobody nobody but you~~ ) ahhheeeee.. then few days following that, aku shopping kasut~ :D :D ermmmm aku bali pumps!!! the very first time i saw pumps-yang-aku-cinta-pandang-pertama-mesti-bali-jua. the other ones, heels biasa... so, my pumps i think over 5''... wohohohohooo!!!! and my heels perhaps 4''
ahhhheeeeee..
AKO-SOKA-SOPING
Dariah; 8:41 PM
Bits & Pieces
Dariah 24
Leo Bruneian Sport Scientist
Fitness Enthusiast
PE Teacher
Inspired by everyone
A concise perfectionist
Always finishes everything she started
Things That Never Change
i love my husband
i love my family
i love my bestfriend
i love my cats
punctual, very
hates waiting