i won't start doing things, unless everything is perfect and ready to go
i am scared of my own capacity; i am not scared of failure, i am scared of success
when people know your ability and capacity, YES there is pressure to be fabulous
Saturday, March 28, 2009
was in exercise physiology class this morning...for few minutes, the lecturer talked about protein supplements
it was funny how fast the protein-supplement users deny that they have been using it.. it is like a total reflex
lecturer: so anyone have been using this? (protein bottle in hand)
(splits of seconds)
(a guy teased his friend that sat to him)
the guy: so, you've that!! don't lie man.. the buffed guy: no nono, serious, i didn't..
it is like when the celebrities say "i eat everything i like and i still look fantastic"
that is just bull-crap man... they hired a nutritionist, provided a healthy meal that they haven't been exposed... and soon after, they say they like it and claimed they eat everything they like..
"eat everything they like" refers to the new healthy food they just knew about.. not the initial high in trans-fat diet...
and they say "oh no, i just dance".. sure, dance with a professional dance coach.. not with a casual pilipino-dance-instructor (no offense)
moral of all these? there is no more easy/traditional way to reach our goals... there is no more "just-do-5-minutes-of-abs-work-everyday shit" and get a six pack.... there will always be a-something-else-to-do, or some-details they didn't mention...people lie, simply because they don't want you to look as good as they already are..
karit much
Dariah; 1:39 AM
here is the thing about nice people.
1. it is hard to tell them off when they annoy you 2. it is hard to confront them again after you confront them once
nice people, they look friendly, approachable, happy, easy... but wait till you go against them, make them angry, etc they-will-freak'n-hate-you and when they do, they will treat you like you are not worth living in this world..
well...i believe i am a reasonably nice person.. but my personality is so out there... it is no surprise that you don't want to get close to me when i'm pissed, and i've a strong protective reflex, but at least people know that part of me, they can see that.. to people that are close to me that is...
in my case, if i hate something, i tell... if i like i tell as well... so, if other peeps do the same thing to me, sure it will some time for me to handle the issues that they hate about me.. but i will take it in.. and if they say good things.. i will build it up and improve myself from there... that's that... people say what they want to say.. and i will give a piece of my mind in return... then we moved on.... not acting like it is the end of the world
opinions are like assholes, everyone has one so be it
Dariah; 1:16 AM
Monday, March 23, 2009
the game i used to play all my childhood.. i missed it again.. damn it..
STREET FIGHTER
my favourite picks hmmmmm.. why i get the feeling that it sucked like DragonBall Evolution
Dariah; 8:51 PM
damn it!!! DRAGON BALL EVOLUTION IS PLAYING AT THE CINEMA already????... :S
i thought it would be out in June argh!!! i want to watch it at home, with my family, friends.. especially my brothers and sisters...
i grew up watching DragonBall series... would mean alot if i share this moment with them...
5 minutes after complaining and whining about it
hmmmm.. my bro texted me.. it wasn't the best movie because it wasn't a Japanese based movie..
this holywood people are trying to be 'good' in everything.. trying to steal every culture's moment..
the last samurai - the hero was American memoirs of a geshia - the heroin was not Japanese transformers - the hero was a HUMAN! supposed to be Optimus Prime
damn you people
Dariah; 7:45 PM
HAPPY 69th BIRTHDAY DAD!!
mudah2an umur bapa dipanjangkan, supaya aku dapat bahagiakan bapa, sepertimana bapa telah bahagiakan hidupku, supaya aku dapat sanangkan hidup bapa, sepertimana bapa sanangkan hidupku..
aku sayang bapa...
Dariah; 12:54 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
(unknown designer)
VeraWang Spring Bridal 2009 collection (my obssession with drapes)
oktak pouches collection
Dariah; 11:33 AM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
not the first time TvShows like Project Runway made me cry
Dariah; 12:45 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
the fun of direct translation
bull shit = taie sapi (got it from bro Dahari)
hot hot chicken shit = angat2 taie ayam
my love only slap one hand = cintaku hanya bertepuk di sebelah tangan
i am afraid banana give fruit two times = aku takut pisang berbuah dua kali
what the hell? = apa itu neraka? (got it from bro Dahari)
hahahaha the list goes on... so remember, whenever you guys want to swear and pissed off at something.. translate what ever you want to say to Malay or vice versa...
p/s this post is inspired by Erma... i put hot-hot-chicken-shit as my private message at MSN then she said:
taie ayam panas2 ka tu Dah?
Dariah; 3:21 PM
when people started to buy a camera, they wanted to be a professional photographer
when people started to join dance class, they wanted to register for dance competition
when people started to do sports, they wanted to get to national/international levels
when people started to play musical instruments, they wanted it to be a profession
this is why some people are afraid to take the first step thought of the things way ahead of 'em ambitious, i should say it can turn out to be good, if they have the determination it can be bad if they are hot-hot-chicken-shit
Dariah; 1:05 PM
aku anak bungsu dari 12 adi-beradi.. jadi gelaran macam kaka atu nada.. lain lah halnya kalau sepupu memanggil aku.. atu pun jarang bjumpa.. jadinya jarang jua kana panggil kaka..
aku ada 18 anak buah sudah, aku kana panggil bungsu lah... masa pertama kali ku kana panggil bungsu aku rasa macam... aku atu... kana hormat... macam kana look-up-to.. catu lah..
siuk jadi bungsu ani, anak2 buah selalu manja rah ku... aku bawa durang jalan2... belanja durang... buli durang... malukan durang... siuk lah.. macam rasa kaka jua tapi the best part is.. aku inda payah jaga durang 247... it is more of like kaka part time.. hehe.. tapi aku special sikit... aku buuuuuuggggsuuuu bukan kaka.... hahaha..
sebatah jadi bungsu ani ada pelbagai versi 'bungsu':
1. bongcho 2. bungso 3. bungsunya
kesimpulannya... it is a beautiful feeling when i heard they call me bungsu...
anak Bungsu never gets old, anak Tua does~ kekekeke
Dariah; 12:11 PM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
my mind has been questioning about my capabilities these past weeks.
people always say... "don't let anybody stop you from achieving your goals"
or
"be satisfied with past accomplishment"
or "what past is past, learn from it and move on"
in my case, these statements don't apply because.. i have a strong drive that i will eventually get what i want.. i strongly believe that i can do pretty much anything (InsyaAllah).. although some things require longer time to master or achieve but i will get there... i believe that no one could stop anybody's dream unless they let them to do so..
there are some qualities that i haven't acquire or maybe i haven't been exposed to.. but with enough curiosity i will know their existence insyaAllah..
ok, the issue here is...
my drive to be the best i can be could kill me.. well, the word 'kill' is kind of dramatic, but it is serious.. and it is exhausting too.. give and give and give every ounce of energy i have to reach the top... give and give until i am run out of it... also, most of the time i didn't realize the 'exhaustion' until it was almost none left. don't get me wrong, i enjoy what i am doing.. that is the thing, i don't know when to stop... because:-
1. i couldn't say to myself that i am doing to good job 2. i couldn't let go if i made a mistake. i do learn from my mistakes but it is still hunting me till now... (could've would've should've feeling) 3. i feel that i am not good enough (to who? to myself) 4. i feel that i must acquire some of the skills that i don't naturally have 5. i couldn't function if i don't have 5 things to do in one day 6. if i ask people to acknowledge my accomplishment, that just sounds so wrong. so, no acknowledgment plus me couldn't pat myself on the back... it is a crazy feeling. 7. whatever knowledge i already have or courses i have done, it is still not enough (as compare to who? i don't know, just feel there is always something else to complete)
list of strength = list of weakness
Dariah; 6:05 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
my friend forwarded this message to me... perfect timing since i just had the worse day today..
Ya Allah,
The lady reading this
is beautiful, classy and
strong, and I love her.
Help her live her life to the fullest.
Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations.
Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love.
Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most,
and
let her know when she walks with you,
She will always be safe. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin
Love you
Dariah; 7:30 PM
Monday, March 09, 2009
Sambutan Maulud Nabi Muhammad S.A.W
Dariah; 1:06 PM
Saturday, March 07, 2009
yesterday
i was browsing for a bargain keyboard.. whatever brand.. even secondhands... that was how desperate i was to play keyboard...
so many tabs in one window (searching for places to go, how to get there, etc) then, one keyboard grabbed my attention... CASIO CTK-4000...
i couldn't handle it no more.. so i bought it today i got a free stand... it was a good deal
so guys, meet my new friend - Keysha
Dariah; 4:06 PM
Friday, March 06, 2009
last summer, i started to play keyboard..
i played keyboard almost everyday .. 1. immediately when i woke up. 2. before lunch 3. after dinner 4. before bed 5. after outings
so yeah... i am experiencing some withdrawals... sleepless nights... restless... twitching...
i am craving for keyboard and it is not funny anymore
Dariah; 1:26 PM
Thursday, March 05, 2009
i was reading about the heart disease. i've just read 3 lines, i already have 3 words that i don't understand... so, one line... dictionary... second line... dictionary... dear oh dear... my sister Dasimah or Darinah could be handy in moments like this
Dariah; 7:27 PM
i bought a smaller water bottle (600mL) at the airport that cost me $3.90..
then, i bought a bigger bottle (2L) that costs $2.90 at IGA supermarket..ok, obviously i've been robbed at the airport..
anyho.. why did i buy a bottle of water when i can refill it in college or at uni? well, i just need the bottle to measure up how much water i consumed each day..
so if i pretty much emptied the 2L bottle each day.. i'm good~..
it would be even better if i top up my water consumption from these 'favourite' bottles of mine~
of course it has to be Adidas
Dariah; 1:21 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
it is really alot to take in when:
1. studying conditions that would cost people's lives. 2. watching tv series that has dieing scenes. 3. somebody told me that a friend's father just past away.
sometimes people die due medical reasons, some people die because its their faith, their time to go...
it must be hard when it happen all of sudden... never wait for a special day to arrive to tell how much you love, appreciate everyone you care most... at least if 'that' happens, they will rest in peace, in happiness and thought that they've done good things in life because you have told them so...
Dariah; 11:25 PM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
whatever i have written, whatever i have produced, it is my song, my voice, my rhythm, it is not "cut-paste-and-reused"
Dariah; 12:27 AM
Monday, March 02, 2009
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SISTER DAHARIANI (28/2) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO NIECE ERAH & NABILAH
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO NEPHEW AMIN
Dariah; 2:45 PM
Sunday, March 01, 2009
alahai... dari ari jumat tenet dalam bilik ku inda mau.. rupanya LAN setup ku 'terdelete'... nyeh~~ nasib jua ku bagas meruah barang2 lama... ada CD-ROM untuk install balik.. aheee
Dariah; 8:31 PM
Bits & Pieces
Dariah 24
Leo Bruneian Sport Scientist
Fitness Enthusiast
PE Teacher
Inspired by everyone
A concise perfectionist
Always finishes everything she started
Things That Never Change
i love my husband
i love my family
i love my bestfriend
i love my cats
punctual, very
hates waiting