Wednesday, July 30, 2008
what hold us back from doing what we do best? Why in life people move further away from their passion? these were a couple of questions asked in my Coaching Psychology lecture.
some of the reasons:
1. people afraid to change.
the truth is, the type of person you were as a kid is still in you. it is just that, that attitude has grow as you age. say for example, as a kid you don't like your toys got mixed up with your little sister. as an adult now, you are an organised person.
2. we worry about our weaknesses too much. we focus on how to improve our weaknesses most of the time.
remember when we were kids, when some of us scored 'A's in English and History then, failed in Math. all parents spent hundreds of dollars to improve that grade; try to push it to A as well. it is nature i guess. parents wanted us to be best in everything.
but this is not how it should be. we should focus on our strengths so that we could be drawn towards what we love doing in the future.
sure, you want to work on the weaknesses you have, but spend alot effort and time to grow, exploit your strengths not the other way round. if you keep close what you love, you can't go wrong in life.
Dariah; 7:04 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
... and yet, it didn't stop them from doing what they enjoy most.
Dariah; 12:51 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
woke up at 5am. sahur, then get ready for uni.
i love first day of uni. why? because i like observing the anxious, scared, lost and need-to-buy-all-the-textbooks-by-today freshers.. hahaha..
freshers writing down the list of books recommended by the school. the lists are available at the bookshop
year in, year out.. it has always been like this. first day, they bought redicolously expensive books without even realising there was a secondhand bookstore 10 metres away. haha~ and for most part, the textbooks weren't that important at all and turned out that they would be flipping it through in just week 1.
how i know? because i was one of them when i was a fresher~ :p so what i do now? i borrow books from library..
if so happen that they books are really really good.. then, i will buy for myself and for future reference.
i had one lecture today, and OH.MY.GOSH. my lecturer was like "ok, you will be presenting a topic in groups from week 6-10"... "you will be coaching in week 8 and 9"... "and week 10 you submit your proposal".. it was really TO-MY-FACE warning of the workloads ahead..
owh well, i was aware of it... and i was mentally prepared. so, NO WORRIES~
Dariah; 9:58 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
tomorrow i will be officially a third year student!! wohoooo~
ok, it is time to clear my head, refresh and give room for another challenging semester.
so i would love to change my blog's song to one of my inspirational songs. Someone's is watching over me by Hillary Duff.
.... and no, i haven't slept yet~ gosh, i better change this aweful sleeping cycle.
Dariah; 4:08 AM
as usual, was watching clips in youtube, then i stumbled onto these clips. Lea Salonga
i tell you this girl is a beautiful person, whole package. communication skill is superb, has an extremly polite manners, accent is gorgeous and drop dead talented.
this clip was taken when she was 18. she is a Phillipino, but i felt in love with her British accent. i have never been this mezmerized with such talent and beautiful charisma that she has. i even say to myself, i want to be like her (..well, with different passion that is~)... she is such a beautiful person
listen to her singing, i cried... pure talent... this is what i can truly call 'a breath of fresh air'. not like NorahJones (haha hate much~) i adore Lea very much
she looks so different now.. i think she is in her late 30's. gosh, no wonder the interview clip looked so old.. haha.. she is still pretty though :) and sadly she lost her British accent. now she has American accent. owh well i still adore her personality.
...man, it is late already, i can't sleep :s ...
Dariah; 3:12 AM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
was checking my mailbox. i have a letter from VERVE. hmm~~
I WAS GIVEN A VOUCHER!!!! gosh oh gosh!!!
with this voucher, i can access the centre for two whole weeks. i can use the gym, aerobic classes, pilates and many more!! the best part is i have 2 sessions with a Personal Trainer!! wohhooo!!! what a PERFECT GIFT!! i appreciate this very much.. Thanks to Rikki-Lee.. hehe she was the one who introduced me to Verve.. boy oh boy... can't stop smilling!!! heeeeeeeeeeeee..
Dariah; 9:33 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
planned to shop for stationaries today. the weather was bad, it rained the whole afternoon. then, around 3.30pm it stopped. soon after it drizzled abit. man~~
the sun was out but it was still drizzling. when i was waiting for the bus, i saw a FULL RAINBOW!! GOSH!! it is really pretty.
when i was in the bus, it looked like i could grab the rainbow, it was huge and bright. but i didnt manage to get a good shot of it.
anyways, so i planned to buy stationaries. didn't work. i wanted to shop at this particular store where they sell redicolously cheap stuffs, CrazyClarks. sadly, the ones i want were sold out :(.. was not in the mood to go to other stores.
i was kinda expecting Ron to join me today but she was out of reached *sigh*
i was craving for japanese food this whole week so i went to Jaws.
guess that was it.
Dariah; 9:32 PM
owh yeah, i probably didn't mention about my job at Holywood Private Hospital that much. that is because i resigned about two months ago due to medical reasons. i was coughing for almost two months last semester and i was diagnosed with Acute Bronchitis. it was a difficult semester. my doctor initially told me that i had a common cold. it prolonged to more than a month, then i was told that i have Bronchitis.
the ward that i worked previously had patients with respiratory problems, so i bet i got it from them. i was given a flu-shot but i guess it was not strong enough.
alongside with that, i had fever every two weeks. Doctor adviced me to not engage in any form of physical activity. man, what a semester it was.
alhamdulillah, i am 100% fine now. no more coughing and occassional fever. resigning from working at the hospital was definitely the right choice.
new semester commences this coming Monday. i hope that i will be healthy throughout.
so, will i be working at different area this sem? will see.
Dariah; 4:15 AM
my better half always tells me that whenever i have a hard time sleeping, do some readings. Ermmmm... this is hard because i don't read. i hate reading. sometimes it worked - made me go to sleep, but most of the time it gave me headache.
i always joke about my hatred to reading by saying "i have enough books to read from Uni, no thanks". hehe
then, i bought this book. Look Good, Feel Great. it is a good book. i read till page 15 and i was not bored to death.. hahaha~
this book is all about losing weight and permanently keep it off. i love the word "permanent" hehe... i was introduced to this book by Stephen Smith in a seminar i attended a couple of days ago.
i went to a Seminar "The Secrets of Weight Loss" held at Verve (women fitness centre). i was invited by Rikki-Lee (resident of St Cats). She is a member there. Rikki knows that i am all about health, fitness and weight loss so she immediately thought of tagging me along once she received the news about the seminar. so thoughtful of her :)
the studio
all of the machine there are cutting-edge. treadmills, crosstrainers and bikes have small tv attached infront of each machine. i tried one of the cable machine, boy it was smooth!!!! unlike other cables i tried, it is very well designed, well lubricated and best of all, it doesn't look musculine.. haha
they also have a small cafe.
i would love to be a member Verve. it is a women only fitness centre plus it is close by. unfortunately, i don't have the budget and it is quite expensive.
Dariah; 4:02 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
there was this point in time, when i looked around. there was no familiar faces; no one to hold my hand or to hold on to, no one to give me pat on the back and sincerely say "good job Dahriah", no one looking at me as a normal human being (ok to be an outlier), no one adores, just no one.
when i wanted to seek for answers, no one wants to share. but they shared them to their friends from same race and background.
when these feelings kick in. my heart shrinks and i just feel terribly sad. so instantly my heart whispered "i want to go home, i need a hug"
...4 months to go...
Dariah; 10:32 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
my monthly expense worries me. i am a highly maintenance person. from facial care to health care.
i can't use other cheap facial products, and i can't use any cheap dietary supplements. also, i need to take in fitness supplements due to my active lifestyle. well, people say that with proper diets, we don't need supplements. actually, that is not true. there are only so much that we can eat. lets face it, our lifestyles are far different from ancient history. i know that supplements can give side-effects. this is where knowledge and thorough reading into what we take in is crucial.
i believe what i take in and use are good for my body. so i don't give other products a chance.
say for example, facial care. it is a constant battle against ance for me. so i need to use good quality products. i need to use good makeup products too. so, i say NO to SeriAyu, MustikaRatu or something like that. makeup remover also need to be the best for my skin - which is only available here in Perth. *sigh* again, people say when we eat healthy, our skin will be flawless. i don't know whether i would agree to that.
so, what is my future going to be? will my income be sufficient to support my monthly needs? i don't know..
people who knows me said that i have 'special' skin. well years before,i feel good about it because i am different from other people and that i am 'special'. you know~ special people requires special needs. now, it is more of a burden.. even my contact lens is specially design/made and uncommon. if i have lots of money, that is totally a different story.
... whatever happen to 'good things in life are for free'?...
Dariah; 10:51 PM
last week, an amazing tv show Eat To Save Your Life hosted by Jamie Oliver
this week, another interesting show hosted by him again, Jamie's Fowl Dinner.
this time, he was talking about chicken and eggs production. in Britain, eggs are produced unnaturally. the chicken was forced to lay eggs in a small period of time. i think, they are called something egg machine. you guys have to see it, it was not good. the chicken was not in a good condition, their feathers fell off.. sad scene really
the chicken, the scientifically-controlled chicken to be precise, their life-span is only 36 days!!! gosh!! and they are huge. since they become big in short period of time, they have weak/not-properly developed bones. hence, most of the time they sat down. they couldn't lift themselves up and walk around.. and also, they don't look healthy at all.
one of the poultry people said that, they did this because this is what costumers want, the bigger the better. and have chicken available all the time. these chicken are cheap as well. so costumers for sure go for these chicken.
unlike the healthy ones (only 5% in this business practice this), chicken lay eggs not as often and smaller in size. also, they cost abit more ($1 more). also, their life span is longer (obviously)
for me, paying $1 more is fine by me, it is cheaper than paying for medication due to the side-effects from having those scientifically-controlled chicken for the rest of my life.
the thing is, i live in college. i guess i have to stop eating the large-looking chicken from now on.
owh yea, i was told before that the big chicken here, they have growth hormones. i don't know why they injected the chicken with that hormone. gosh, staying here for a long period of time really concern me.
i was even told that there is a high chance to get breast cancer if international students stay here long enough. breast cancer can develop from diets and environment. gosh, with weird hormones, pesticides and whatever they put in the food we eat, it is really possible to develop just any kind of disease or even cancer here.
all we can do is pray for our health i suppose. man, i miss Brunei.. i feel safer at home :(
Dariah; 10:43 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
everybody has been talking about Batman, The Dark Knight. i asked Veronica and Maria to accompany me :D. we went lastnight
Extreme Screen~ dramatic entrance i must say
the thing about going to watch a movie at the cinemas, we need to consider 3 things
1. transport (if lazy and need to catch the movie on time, take a cab = expensive!)
2. tickets are expensive. if you forget to tell that you are a student, it costs almost $15!
3. popcorn costs around $8 and it is salty! no sweet popcorn
it was nice of Maria to sponsor the ride :)
how was the movie you ask? *sigh* i didn't get it. i was puzzled. Ron promise to explain the movie sometime when we get together.
Maria told me that she was up till 9.30am thinking/analysing the movie!!!! haha... i was so puzzled that i don't know what to think about~
today
i was reading some health/fitness book then Ron phoned me. she said that Maria is flying off to Melbourne at midnight. i was like "WHAT???, WHY?"
at first, Maria planned to fly back early August. she has to change because she needs to settle some stuff in Melbourne. it was too soon :( i really like Maria, love to have her around. she is an interesting person to talk too. the first day i met her at Ron's place, i didn't have to pretend someone that i am not. i was really opinionated and she found it interesting. i always have feedback on almost everything and she was fine with it.
too bad her visit was cut short. that is fine, at least i have the opportunity to know her :) she said she might come and visit again during study break with her bestfriend!!! yey!!
Dariah; 2:07 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
there was this one time, i asked myself "why there isn't any show for coaches? sport trainers?" you know~ something similar like "american idol", "america's next top model", "top chef".. so, how about The Best Personal Trainer or something.. hehe..
also, i envy kids going to Professional Music School (eg Raise Your Voice - starring Hillary Duff, Drumline, etc). they looked so passionate and gave their all in the movies.
then, i realised that i
am in my very own movie. i study what i love; i worked so hard every semester, i cried, stumbled down so many times, in the end i got back up again - just like in the movies.
i've always thought that my efforts were not good enough, others were brighter than me, better than me. these feelings always hold me back from being the confident-happy-go-lucky Dahriah that i used to be when i was in high school.
one moment, i realised that they are better because they have more experience and better communicator than me but that doesn't mean that i am any less good. afterall, we are all in the same University and the same class.
i think, i have to give myself credits sometimes. my parents are proud of me, Arifin is proud of me, why can't i?
i guess, when you are surrounded with great people, your specialties overshadowed by theirs. as a result, it will never be good enough.
.. just jotting down my thoughts.. :)
Dariah; 9:36 PM
2 days stuck at home. it is driving me crazy..
Dariah; 7:11 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
was planning to dine out with Ron and Maria, but today's weather forced us to cancel it. there were thunderstorm and strong wind.
hence i stayed in the whole day. i've watched Mrs Doubtfire, THS (true holywood stories) and other reality tv shows on Foxtel (something like Astro)
i slept early today, around 8.30pm. unfortunately i woke up around 10. 30pm. luckily i have tv in my room (Nyarai let have it over the holiday :D ), and School of Rock was on. so, that kept me up. its midnight now.. i hope i can get back to sleep..
....wait
wait wait... what day is today? when does Uni start again? OH.MY.GOSH. it is 10 days till new semester begins!!
will be hybernating till then.. haha~
Dariah; 11:58 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i grew up watching SlamDunk with my fun bro, Dahari. our facial expressions, body language and jokes rooted from SlamDunk.
setting up my blog with SlamDunk songs just brought up so many fun memories of my childhood :)
also, i've watched DragonBalls, but that time i was REALLY little. so i couldn't recall any of the episodes. unlike SlamDunk, i can just call up my bro and laugh about every single detail Sakuragi did in any of the episodes.
"tensai sakuragi hanamichi basketoman"... wahahahaha..
...man, i miss my bro...
Dariah; 11:11 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
i've watched two movies:
1. wanted. - it was alright
2. step up 2 - it was cool
tv shows:
1. eat to save your life - hosted by Jamie Oliver
2. so you think you can dance season 2
Eat To Save Your Life is a fantastic tv show. it tells you what chips, burgers, coke, fried process food do to your body.
Jamie gathered the nutritionist and human anatomy expert.
what stroke me was, excess fat in the body can gets into the muscle. WHAT!! don't want that to happen to me!
also in the show, Jamie emphasized the amount of fat overweight/obese consume each year. he illustrated it by filling up the bath tub with oil. when the oil over flow, that was the amount of fat stored in the body for an obesed person
over 5 YEARSof course, they showed the solution of bad eating habit- good nutrition and healthy lifestyle.
good nutrition: take in good cholesterol - olive oil, fish fats, anti-oxidants (oranges, strawberries). lentiles, fruits, vegg and lots and lots of water.
well, that is just a nutshell. hehe.. don't want to say so much.. the show is still running actually.. hehe
(continued)gosh, this show runs for almost two hours. i just had to add on
about 15 participants volunteered in the show and all of them are from slightly overweight to morbidly obesed.
when 3 of the participants did a VO2 Max test (measures the amount of oxygen consumed in the body). the three participants are;
slightly overweight, obesed and morbidly obesed.strangely,
obesed subject scored higher in VO2 max text. this is simply because his weight is higher due to higher muscle mass. so he is not obesed, just very musculine, hence very healthy. the second highest was
morbidly obesed and the lowest was
slightly overweight. THIS IS INTERESTING.
the expert pointed out that, despite the lean thin look it doesn't mean that you are fit and has less fat. in fact, a chubby bulky looking person has lesser fat and fitter. in short, it is better to be
chubby & fit than
lean & unfit.
towards the end, the anatomy expert presented a donated (dead) body who ate himself to death. he was call the 25-Stone-Man.
the 25SM was obviously morbidly obesed. when the Dr disected the abdominal area, he pointed out that 25SM had a huge liver filled with fat tissue. the heart size doubled due to fat tissue surrounding it. the diaphragm was lifted up, aligned to nipple due to the excessive fat deposits. imagine the size of his lungs????
Dr added, this 25SM couldn't perform any physical activity due to shrinked lungs (pushed up). even with few steps he would be out of breathe, choking rather.
excessive fat also settled around the blood vessels that decrease blood flow. Dr said that 25SM was dead due to heart failure and ate himself to death.
fascinating, very much
Dariah; 10:09 PM
was really bored today, decided to go out. i bought some more containers. this got me thinking, if i am at home, i don't have to buy containers because my mom always have 'em; small, big sizes, square, round shapes, you name it, my mom will have them.
the sceneries in the city;
the mime
the pianist; he plays the piano so fast.
the other night. i went to Ron's house. she cook dinner
ron masak talur masin!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aku suka!!!! then i asked her, why the eggs has two egg-yolks. she said that if i happen to see that it is lucky sign.. then i said "yea yea.. i see i see.." haha~
Ron served bubur, and she filled the bowl to the top. i said to her, "ron, this is the amount of rice i eat for 2 weeks, or maybe even for 2 months" haha
i don't eat rice that much.
Dariah; 4:08 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
results are out today. was pleased with my grades and i have grade B overall. alhamdulillah.
this means...
i am a third year student baby~ wohoooo~
Dariah; 1:07 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
was reading people's blogs.. then i stumbled upon these clips they've posted.
these guys are funny!
usually when someone did a puppet show, it gave me a nightmare.. but this one was fine.. plus it was hilarious!
Dariah; 11:58 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
Maria, Ron's friend from Melbourne wants to meet me up today. so we meet up in the city:)
owh yeah, the night when Ron made SteamBoat, that was the night when Ron introduced me to Maria.. so yeah... Maria is a nice girl.. i really do enjoy her company.
when we were in the city, we went through the new train station.. huwahhh.. all of us look so 'sakai' hahah.. looks so much like Singapore.
anyways, we went to Harbour Town. i didn't buy anything. was just liking the idea of going out, chilled. i had lots of fun, Maria has a good sense of humour. we get along really well. hehe poor Ron, Maria & i teased her alot tonight.. hehe.. well, maria, daria.. we rhyme.. haha~
Dariah; 10:38 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
again, i fell sick.. *sigh*
i was
from only-get-sick-once-a-year
to get-sick-on-regular-basis.
to tired to figure out how or why i fell sick.
Dariah; 8:21 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
was abit down today..
then i browsed for LondonCapitalFM online RadioStation. yey!! i can listen to capital FM!! i tried before, ages ago; it didn't work. so i stopped trying. now it works, makes me happy~
then after dinner, i went to the Lounge. i've watched:
1. Celebrity Apprentice Final
2. Project Runway Australia
the Apprentice Final episode was amazing, very inspiring. LOVED it.
Project Runway was fun to watch too.. i've always been a fan of these TV shows.
Dariah; 10:26 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i've watched
1. The Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian
2. Hancock
love them both..
i'm starting to think, i'm liking this holiday.. :)
Dariah; 10:03 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
Ron phoned me lastnight, she invited me to her house for SteamBoat!!
huwahhhhhh....
well, Ron's friends were there too~
did i mentioned ron is an amazing cook?.. well she is..
earlier on today she made me marinated chicken.. OH.MY.GOSH. couldn't help to moan~ then i realised how much i miss your cooking Ron :)
thanks Ron!!!
Dariah; 11:56 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
it feels almost like home when i was E buzZ the whole afternoon in the Louge area.
this reminds me of the sofa i bought for my family back home.
night time, i've watched watched a movie, Disturbia. i know i know~ i watched it abit late.
anyho~ i like this movie, i couldn't remember when was the last time i watched a suspense movie and kept me on the edge. it was all good.
Dariah; 11:54 PM
was having a light workout at the gym.
did some basic biceps curl infront of a mirror. my imagination just went wild. i said to myself "i want to have a studio, surrounded with mirrors, motivational posters flashing here and there.. and.. and.. and..."
it is amazing how mirrors could explore our creativities;
look into the mirror, and
- we play around with different look, style, trend.
- we play around with dance routine, moves
- we find out ways to make it work (in all aspects; make-up, outfit, routine).
... don't judge a girl when she looks into a mirror ...
Dariah; 1:12 AM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
yesterday i went to the city with Mila. i planned to buy some small containers for storing my snacks. on our way to Borders Bookshop, i saw Veron. boy she was mad (abit) hehe.. she was like "you go shopping without me?????" sorry Ron, to me buying containers didn't fall into the Shopping Category. when i arrived home, Ron called. she was hungry.. well, i was hungry as well at the time, so i went to city. Japanese food always makes us happy, right Ron??
then, last night~ after some crazy talk, we decided to go shopping (since last time was abit no-drive-to-shop)
so today~
waiting for Ron at the BusPort. what else to do? hehe
we plan to go to Carousel. i forgot how much i love that place. i miss the Kebab there~
love this fitting room, so glamorous.
didn't think that i would go crazy today. let me see, i bought a coat, a pair of boots, aviator sunnies, a wrobe, a top.. hmmm.. i think that was all.. haha~ Ron went crazy too...
[edited] also, i didn't know why, i was in a laughing, giggling mood.. hehe.. ron malu~
before we headed home, i wanted to buy pretzos bread. i was concerned abit whether or not it is Halal. i asked the staff there, he said it is Halal. then Ron was like "errRR, that is bacon".. the guy then explained that, the bacon is not pork, it is beef bacon...
verdict?? i
LOVE pretzos!!!! my new obsession.
i very much had a blast today Ron :)
Dariah; 7:57 PM