i won't start doing things, unless everything is perfect and ready to go
i am scared of my own capacity; i am not scared of failure, i am scared of success
when people know your ability and capacity, YES there is pressure to be fabulous
Monday, April 26, 2010
aheeee...
i got my new car...
aheeee....
i love it....
aheee....
i love my new ride...
aheeee
Dariah; 6:41 PM
Sunday, April 25, 2010
i always hate Mondays.. (inspired by Garfield) :)
but tomorrow-Monday is a different-Monday... i am getting my car~~~ yeppie~~
downside is, it is not my dream car... but hey it is a brand new car.. :) so yeay for me... buleh jalan2 ni~~~ makan2 ni~~~ shopping2 ni~~ aheeee
Dariah; 9:45 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
gosh.. Arifin borrowed my laptop for 3 days, boy i felt lonely... heheh..
hmmm... on the other note, at the moment i am Car-Less... hopefully not for long...
my dream car is going to be mine, insyaAllah :D senyum sampai ketelinga
Dariah; 8:13 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
on the other note,
aku-mau-makan-CAKE-nyaman
aku-mau-makan-AMBUYAT
aku-mau-makan-makan-makan..
hahaha..
Dariah; 10:06 PM
i could finally make sense of my off-track-demotivated mind.
when i was in Aussie, i encountered different type of people, different personalities, attitudes.. different situations, different issues almost everyday..
so here i am, in Brunei working as an Educational Officer where i repeatedly teach exactly the same thing for 14 times each week.. encountered exactly the same people, same attitudes, same issues..
no wonder my creativity is slowly diminishing... i need variety..
when i trained my clients, i could see results within weeks.. with my students, the could only see results over a year period...
and the difference between having clients and students is that, my clients gave me feedback.. it was a two-way communication.. i consulted them, there was a follow up, intervention and talked about rooms for improvements... as for my students, they simply do what i order them to do, it is according to the syllabus...
with my clients, the program evolve around them.. it is personalized according to their goals and, likes and dislikes...
i hate to admit that i don't really know my students.. there are way too many of them.. i would want to know them better.. i like one-on-one business.. i would want to pursue my dream as a personal trainer.. i know perhaps this job is like a detour.. but, i don't know how am i going to grow from where i am standing right now..
i don't normally wait to be discovered i let them know myself
Dariah; 9:24 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
DREAMS: big house, luxurious cars, high paid job, beautiful family
REALITY: typical job, standard house, practical car, beautiful family
so one thing in common? beautiful family...
if i have lots of money, i wouldn't want to spend on one most expensive thing.. i would want to buy many-good-things..
sure, buying that redicolously pricy car or as simple as a KLS handbag would be nice.. but, it won't last... and perhaps these things would be out of trend or just a one-hit-wonder..
sigh.. as much as being wise feels right, i hate to admit it is the right way to go..
Dariah; 7:55 PM
Monday, April 12, 2010
i have always live up with this statement that i've made back then..
"why settle with GOOD when you have all the opportunities to be GREAT"
then, i stumbled upon a statement "i was never GOOD, i was GREAT!"
when people foresee our potential, should we take that as a joke and brush it off? are we afraid of challenge? or should be believe in it and nurture it?
i want a challenge that could actually gives me the adrenaline rush that i always thirst for.. not a challenge that could make be brain dead and suck all of my energy.
i want to do something that doesn't drain me, even after a long day... a job that gives me a great deal of satisfaction.
i have to say, i am not train to be a teacher.. most of the time i don't know what i am doing... i am not a natural teacher.. my mind is not programed to be a teacher.. but it is just a responsibility that was put upon me..
when i think of another statement i live by "i always finished everything i started"... will i ever stop a career such as teaching? my former teacher in primary school is still there... my former secondary teacher is still there... will i forever be doing exactly the same thing?
i am not saying "teaching" is a bad profession.. it is just not for me.. there, i've said it... i know i can be better, i KNOW i am better...
i didn't plan to be a teacher, i didn't spend 3 years of hardships, and paid for Elite course just to settle down as a teacher...
i am doing 80% of work for 20% outcome when it is suppose to be the other way round
Dariah; 8:36 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2010
a phrase i made few years back while i was at Aussie "when a clown cries, would you still laugh?"
ermmm tadi,
i was actually crying in the car alone... hyperventilated, exhausted and alone.. i didn't know what to do; where should i go, who can i bother... it was just before 4pm.. i decided to pick up Siti from school...
from the second Siti went into the car, we laughed crazier than we ever did...
it was like a breathe of fresh air love love
Dariah; 9:49 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
ok, i am just going to say it even i tried to deny it for more than 6 months..
i-hate-paperwork.. i hate keying in marks, i hate making records, reports, comments.. i-hate-MARKING
i hate i hate i hate..
any thing else could make me hate it even more.. ... will just do no good
i want to be a personal trainer, fitness consultant. deal with clients.. absolutely NO MARKING...
Dariah; 11:11 PM
Sunday, April 04, 2010
i wonder when was the last time i played the keyboard...
i want to play a number to Arifin
Dariah; 10:20 PM
atubah,
aku kanyang masa ani lapas makan Soto.. heheh..
anyho.. aku ani kan membuat keraja... inda terpikir ani bah.. kenapa nah?
ever wonder why badan lamah lapas makan? or ngantuk inda terpikir lagi? when you just had a meal, most of your blood drain to your tummy to digest food. hence, less blood available to your muscles as well as your brain.
that is why you are not advisable to do any form of physical activity following a meal. or do not intake a huge meal prior to exercise.
so going back to 'thinking', that is why lunch break is at least 1 and a half hour.. heheh.. so the conclusion is~ i have an excuse to rest for a good 90 minutes before i go back to my paperwork.
Dariah; 12:02 PM
Saturday, April 03, 2010
ahhhuuu
aku sakit tadi masa keraja banarnya.. i woke up at somewhere midnight i think, i had a few sips of water from my bottle.. then around 4 am, i was about to vomit... i had gas in my stomach.. i drank a warm milk to calm it down.. unfortunately i ended up throwing it back out..
i tried to go back to sleep... i was turning and turning then my alarm went off.. i had a terrible tummy ache.. i was in tears.. so painful.. i was so wanting to call Arifin but it was just too early in the morning..
i was sweating, my body was warm, and i was vomiting air... i didn't have any breakfast so afraid that it would come back out..
was planning to take MC.. but who is going to take care of my classes? my duties? plus my syllabus is far away from done for the term.
so today, i try to minimalize my speech, movements because every single step i made i wanted to vomit...
at school i so wanted to go home and rest, i just couldn't bare to leave my work... all the paperwork i had to do...
Arifin told me that it must be something i ate.. i guess so too.. hmmm... it was thoughtful of him to check up on me once he finished working :)
(p/s) time2 sakit ani mengidam makanan yang labih2 ni, napa kan ya tu syam?? haha
so yeah.. i was really quiet at work..
Dariah; 9:31 PM
Friday, April 02, 2010
i am addicted to....
SWIMMING...
:D
i went swimming last Tue, then Thurs.. then JUST now... that is almost everyday.. it was like "hmmm what should i do today?" Swimming just popped in my mind naturally..
love the adrenaline rush in my blood
Dariah; 8:12 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2010
i am crazy about this song, was trying to put it as my blog song but couldn't seemed to work...
i listen this everymorning now... fresh start everyday... last year my UpBeatMorningSong was Generasiku by OAG... so this year would be this: Buka Semangat Baru by Ello, Ipang, Lala, Berry. i absolutely adore this song...
Yesterday was History Tomorrow is a Mystery Today is a Gift That is why it is call the Present
Dariah; 1:37 PM
hmmm.... talked to Syam about one issue today that we could totally understand.. hahah (ermm bila jua inda?) hehehe...
i have lots to 'work on' :P
Dariah; 12:15 AM
Bits & Pieces
Dariah 24
Leo Bruneian Sport Scientist
Fitness Enthusiast
PE Teacher
Inspired by everyone
A concise perfectionist
Always finishes everything she started
Things That Never Change
i love my husband
i love my family
i love my bestfriend
i love my cats
punctual, very
hates waiting