Wednesday, May 09, 2007
i had 5 hours of sleep last night due to the endless banging doors and girls chatting (it was freak'n 12.30 am for crying out loud)
my swimming suits were still wet and i had swimming class at 8am. well, it will get wet anyways so, everything was fine. as i was about to change into my swimming attire, MY TOP WASN'T IN MY BAG. my swimming suit is two pieces and i LEFT MY TOP. the class was about to start in 5 minutes. what could i do, i had to ride my bike back to St Cats.
during the class, we had to dive in into the depth water pool, from a platform. Chris, who usually take care of me at the deep end, was handling the other half of the class: our class today was split into two and i had another coach, Nat. Nat is a young coach while Chris is abit older.
oh boy, Nat kept on pushing me to dive in when i'm terrified of the deep end. Chris knows this, so she wouldn't push me as hard as Nat did. i dived in 3 times and the water just smacked my intire body and face. it hurts so bad. not just that, i still can't concentrate while my legs are not comfortably touch the floor of the pool. at the third dive, my goggles went off. i couldn't open my eyes, so i couldn't see and in the end i paniked. Nat grabbed my right arm that went to the surface. he still insisted me to try again. i cried. he didn't notice that i did, because everyone usually gets red eyes after swimming and running nose. he asked me to dive again but this time jumped in with my legs, like just dropping myself into the pool. i did, that was ok... but i was terribly embarassed because while i was diving or jumping in, everyone was in the pool looking at me. i rarely feel shy or embarassed (in a good way) but today, i feel so embarassed that i refused to attend the lecture of this unit.
exam is in 3 weeks time. i don't want to look stupid anymore, i hate this feeling. i mean, i can swim. in the normal 1.4m depth pool that is. i should be proud of myself because early this year i didn't even know how to float. i felt confident yesterday because i know how to do butterfly stroke. after what had happened today i feel i am in the rock bottom, again. *sigh*
when will the glory days be mine?
Dariah; 7:39 PM
