SNOW.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

went out with Ron today.

while waiting for Ron, had a large Mocha Chillers Cookies and Cream at Gloria Jean's Coffees. i just couldn't wait to have it~~

the weather was really bad to start off. the rain was pouring, but hey~ that didn't stop us from shopping.

both of us went crazy. within an hour we bought something already. where the go girls~~ hahaha

i had this 'skirt' phase. as Ron said to me again and again "you Dah, got weird phases"..now, i am crazy about short skirts, leggings and long boots. haha.. the big question is "when are you going to where em' Dahriah?" well, don't spoilt the mood now, just have fun!! i will make it work~ wohooo

we ended our day by having dinner at KFC.. gotta love KFC..

happy happy happy

i had a blast Ron!!!

Dariah; 11:39 PM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

i've always been busy since primary school. participated in cultural events, school events, religious events. secondary school; attended tuition classes (and extra tuition classes), participated in cultural events again, participated in sport events, academic events, any event you name it.

from form 2 up to form 5, i hadn't been slowing down. after O level, participated in tv shows

college life, basically the same; attended extra classes and tuition classes. after A level, again participated in tv shows. alongside with that i was attached at Stadium Hassanal Bolkiah. after all of that done, i've done some tutoring at several tuition schools.

now university life, not even a glimpse of slowing down; working every weekends, tutoring every fortnights, attend extra courses relevant to my degree.

hopes in the future? i want to ease up abit. hahah "abit"... i want to live life to the fullest... lay back and relax. use all of the remaining time discovering the things i probably missed when i was in my 'early' youth.

all we can do is plan, insyaAllah we can make it happen. for sure there will be lots of hickups along the way. as my Arifin always remind me, 'when you fall rock bottom, there is only one way to go, which is up.. and the days will just get better and better'.

have faith, enjoy life and always give something extra to separate you from the second best.

Dariah; 3:00 AM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

was in the city, i saw a staff member giving a turtle a tour, literally~ hahaha...

Dariah; 5:23 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

i've chatted with lili a while ago.. gosh i miss you so much girl. so happen that my msn couldn't read her msn address, so i always see her appeared offline.

but hey~ problem solved. now we will always keep in touch.

lili is my childhood friend, my ex-neighbour, my bestfriend. we grew up together. we shared lots of embarasing moments, great moments, unforgetable moments.

we faught over silly things sometimes when we were kids (over computer games, hahha)

time flew so fast, and we lost contact for a while... i feel guilty about that, because during that period, our personalities have changed. so when we were united once again, miscommunication occured. but all of that is behind us now, fights just make us understand each other even more.

love you lili~~

Dariah; 11:37 AM

David Cook!!!!! wohooo!!!!

usually, who ever i was rooting for never wins.. weLL noW~~~~~~~~~

for the very first time, i am satisfied with the final result. David Cook is so talented. i will buy his album for sure.. David Archuleta was suprisingly great this week as well. but hey~ David Archuleta is still a kid, and he is not as creative and as professional as David Cook. additionally, David Cook plays the guitar. there you go~

all in all, both of their performances were great the other night, and it was a competition. so, one got to win and the other lose.

Arifin was the one who told me that David Cook won. i've watched Cook's performances and others week by week, and got excited alone in my room.

back home, Arifin and i used to watch this show together. it was great that we share our thoughts eventhough we are oceans apart..

sometime today i saw Nurul's personal message at MSN saying "yaay, David Cook won". i immediately tagged her. we got so excited; exchanging thoughts, comments. everything Nurul said, i agreed and simultaneously nodded my head (eventhough she couldn't see me) hahaha. we basically had exactly the same thing to say and we ended up saying alot of "yeah!! yeah!! that's right!! WORD".. HAHAHA good times...

it was nice talking about American Idol to people who followed the show.

Dariah; 11:00 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

i was having a quick break; browsing youtube. then i came across this clip. i just had to post it up.

Dariah; 5:50 PM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

alhamdulillah, i stay in St Cats,
alhamdulillah, i stay on-campus.

why? i can ask any of my St Cats friends anything in regards of my studies. i can ask them anytime of the day. they are just few doors or few ten metres from my door. asking them as simple as making sense of the context of the article i am reading, to as complex as teaching me how to write a report.

i am loving living in St Cats while studying here in Perth. no i won't move out.

Dariah; 9:42 PM

i am down to one term project, one lab report and one simple presentation which are due 30/6. after that, pure revision.

Dariah; 8:38 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008

i was talking to this one lady. we had a normal conversation for quite sometime, then she asked "are you stress Dahriah? uni work is getting into you?"..

i burst into tears

i cried so hard like someone has broken my heart. i was hyperventilating, couldn't mouth a single word. i looked horrible.

she continued, "do you need someone to help you organise your study time?". that stroke me. i asked myself, "do i?" then, i replied "no, it is not that.. i organise my study time just fine"

as the talk went on, i cried even louder.

have i reached my limit? do i need professional help? is it that bad?

i don't know.

i am not sure why i brought it up, especially pouring it to that random lady. poor lady, she must think that i am a troubled woman.

i am trying to see the good side of this incident. i usually didn't let my problems get into me, and today my problems got the best of me.

ok let see what the problems are

stress, why? = increasing uni workload.

why am i so stress about uni? = time constrain

how so? = exam is in less than a month, minus weekends (at work) meaning only about 5 days to revise per unit. alongside with that uni is still running as normal. as uni runs as normal, projects, assignments, reports due one after another. hence revision time is vital.

out of focus, why? = not enjoying gym as much, worry about uni work.

tired, why? = not enough sleep, terribly interupted.

i won't settle with credits or grade C as you may call it. so am i asking for this trouble? making my self stress because i ask too much out of myself?

another side issue,

lack of self-esteem, why? = gain few inches, linked to lack of exercise. some people even confronted me saying that i've gain weight WITH A SMILE. (apparently people like to do this to me, when i gain weight, there you go lots of people telling me i look fat. then when i was all toned, NONE approached me, saying that i've lost weight. you people don't know how psychologically disturbed i've become with weight issue from childhood, thanks guys) not to forget also, my constant fight with acne. same reaction from people.

i'm slowly approaching my breaking point. i might've reached it already.

...all i know, i am not a quiter.. that's that...

Dariah; 4:48 PM

i lost focus last night, totally. i couldn't study. felt suffocated from uni workload

i slept at 8.30. i woke up today 6.45, feel refreshed. i read messages from Arifin on MSN. i am on track now.

do things one at a time. take them in one by one. deal problems according to its priority day by day.

ok, i'm back on track.

insyaAllah, i can go through all this.

Dariah; 9:18 AM

Friday, May 16, 2008

exactly one month/4 weeks/30 days till my first paper

Dariah; 8:36 PM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

yes! timetable is out today. i am so immuned to this arrangement. i start on the first week of exam...

Monday, 16/6 - HMES 3375 sport psychology
Tuesday, 17/6 - PHYL 2255 physiology
Thursday, 19/6 - HMES 2260 exercise physiology
Friday, 20/6 - HMES 2290 physical activity and health

....and apparently my exams finish in one week

semester by semester i would say this.. AT LEAST I FINISH EARLIER THAN OTHERS~ wohooo~~~

Dariah; 8:47 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i have a term project due in three weeks. people might say, still have plenty of time. in my case, better start now. well the thing is, i've started analysing the data like 3 weeks ago and i couldn't make sense out of it. this is where Jay-Lee sport scientist extraordinaire comes in.

Jay-Lee is a new resident, doing her PhD in Sport Psychology. so happen that my term project is from my Sport Psychology unit (HMES 3375). alhamdulillah, i couldn't thank enough for this coincidence.

so just now, she helped me interpret my datas and explained the scientific terms into plain english. gosh! i am so relief now.. and i can start off writing my report in few days time.

alhamdulillah, really alhamdulillah

Dariah; 8:25 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

lapas makan malam tadi, aku terliat ada bini2 org asrama kana antar. antah kana antar bagas berjalan atau dari rumahnya tu.

bapikir ku, sekiranya keluarga ku ada di sini, ada rumah. inda ku mau tinggal di asrama. lapas makan, ke bilik. liat tv, sorang2. tapi, kalau balum merasai tinggal di asrama gerenti pikir tinggal di asrama lagi siuk. nada kana marahi kalau balik jalan ahir, cerita2 sama kawan2.

tapi memang lain lah rasanya tinggal di asrama di tanahair sama di luar negeri. luar negeri, kawan lain, kawan baru, lain bahasa, lain pergaulan.

masa2 terpikir barang cani ani tah membari rindu kan orang rumah. aku rindu liat tv riuh2 sama keluarga ku.. rindu bercerita sambil liat tv... rindu meliat rancangan yang sama2 minat... rindu banyak tanya rah kaka ku masa liat tv... rindu manjai keluarga ku... rindu kana banguni sal tertidur masa liat tv... rindu kana pajal makan banyak uleh mama sama kaka2 ku yang suka meliat aku lampuh... nah, nangis tah ku nah...

lain rasanya bah taun ani, lama lagi aku kan balik.. bulan 11..

taun lapas 3 kali ku balik Brunei...

inda pulang batah lagi aku abis belajar.. bukan pulang niat kan mengusut... ganya, kalau rasa rindu datang, takanang kan orang rumah, membari rawan ati jua... inda lagi dapat bercerita rah durang tu.. karang durang ingau ati, paling2 tah mama...

kalau kan cari kawan sama2 nangis sini.. panjang lagi cerita.. explain rah durang napa tani sedih.. mun rah kawan rapat, paluk durang... nangis... inda payah cakap apa2... keluargaku pun.. durang duduk siringku, diam saja.. just to be there for me..

astagafirullah... adangtah ehh... inda abis2 karang...

masa nangis abis!!! buat kaja!!!

Dariah; 6:38 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

i looked into my Uni Diary, it stated that the exam timetable will be out this coming Friday. the others even said to me it would be a day early. HOLD UP NOW!

exam timetables will be out.... meaning exam is around the corner.... SO SOON?!

which week am i in?

end of week 9, semester ends after week 13.

OH MY GOSH! three more weeks... then exam???

masyaAllah.. time definitely didn't wait for nobody.

....exam preparation starts now with reports and projects along the way.... this is exciting, literally~

owh yea, i am currently tutoring Human Anatomy class every week in St Cats. and off course on top of that work all weekends. (rubbing palms together) it is going to be hectic but i reckon' it is going to be fun :)

wohoooooo. BRING.IT.ON

Dariah; 10:31 PM

after 5 days of pure relaxation, i am not sure whether my 'sleepyness' is due to 'still being abit sick' or 'pure laziness'

hahahaaahaha.. i better hit the gym soon... don't want to be a couch potato..

Dariah; 2:11 PM

i haven't catch up with Senada and her family for the longest time. i should hey~ because they are the nicest people here and they most certainly make me as a part of their family. i feel so selfish that i only talk to them when i feel down. ok then... i will catch up with them soon~

Dariah; 9:39 AM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

being sick = no visits to the gym = not being self

5 days i didn't exercise. i felt guilty (of not exercising), i felt out of focus, not driven to study, just not being myself. however, i had enough sleep, enough rest and i think i am progessively feeling better.

during my previous sickness, i insisted to go to the gym. when i exercise i felt great, but immediately after i felt terrible, worse. also, my sickness extended to two long weeks.

so lesson learnt. i want to recover fast, so i have to sacrifise my visits to the gym into resting in bed. it was worth it.

hopefully i can go back to my normal regime next week. Amin.

Dariah; 5:34 PM

Friday, May 09, 2008

i was still sick today but guess what? i couldn't say no to Ron. she asked me out for dinner and of course shopping straight after. hehe.. the first shop we went in, BAMMMM.. she bought a smoking hot red top. haha well done Ron~ you've learnt so fast~ (once you felt in love, JUST BUY) haha.. *brush shoulder*

i was eyeing this particular top at Supre, and yes i finally bought it.

was really tired after that.. shopping surely does gave adrenaline rush. straight after, no energy - go back to sickness.. haha..

but i guess i really need to see Ron today. she is like the only family i have here, just want to feel like home since i am falling sick all week.

Dariah; 11:25 PM

Top 4 week

for the very first time, David Archuleta blew me away

... and it was not forgetable...

Dariah; 11:22 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

my first tutorial class tonight. it went well despite of my condition. i had three students, all were residents. alhamdulillah theu liked my class. supposingly this tutorial runs once every forthnight. but they insisted to have it weekly. i don't mind. i enjoy studying the human anatomy and seemed to enjoy sharing it to others.

on the other hand, i chatted with Arifin. was really pleasant. just what i need right now. he made me smile. he eased my mind. he is my medicine.

Dariah; 10:18 PM

i am sick again. chesty cough, fever, swollen eyes and period pain. *sigh* mun kan sakit jangan alang2

Dariah; 1:06 PM

Saturday, May 03, 2008

some girls are lucky to not experience period pain. unfortunately me, i am one of the unlucky girls. it's undescribable, internal pain

Dariah; 8:10 PM

Friday, May 02, 2008

movie of the year 2008, PERIOD

Dariah; 7:35 PM

i miss my girls today. why?

they know me very well. they are well aware of my punctuality. when i say i will meet them up in 10minutes, i 'WILL' be there in 10minutes - on the dot. also, if they will be late, they will always leave me a message or something.

lastnight, my lab partner pissed me off. she said she was going to call me 'later'. 3 hours later, i phoned her. she said "owh~ i am sleeping over tonight, i don't have my paper work with me". i clearly sensed a disrespectful of my time. she promised then that she will get back to me early this morning by 8am. half an hour past 8, still no sign of her. then i called her at 9 am. she answered "owh~ i am on my way now".. SERIOUSLY CHICK!!!!!! DON'T SPECIFY ANY TIME IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT!!!

then, when she finally got a hold of her work, i asked her for some datas. she replied "hmmm, owh yea, i haven't started my report yet" OHHHHHH MYYYYYY GODDDDDD!!!!!!

seriously, i miss my girls. my girls won't do this to me. i respect their time and in return they respect mine. whenever i am serious, my girls take me seriously and vice versa. that lab partner of mine didn't even say sorry after all this...

she is going to be my lab partner for the next 2 labs. so note to self, next time down the line, never never ever work with her ever again. PERIOD.

Dariah; 7:35 PM

Thursday, May 01, 2008

about 2 weeks without youtube is unbearable. St Cats connection was bad. but it is fine now

Top 7 week favourites

David Cook (always be my baby) - never fail to amaze me.

Jason Castro (i don't want to cry) - pleasant as always

David Archuleta (when you believe) - he can sing all types of song, but i think he is still young and need some polishing before reaching the top. sometimes whenever he sings, makes me say that he has a baby tone. he is not as creative and as daring as David Cook. so there are differences between David Cook and David Archuleta; age, creativity and professionalism.

Kristy Lee Cook (fovever) - i am not a country song person, so for a country girl like Kristy, she did good and i liked her performance.

performances that made me play more than once on youtube or raised one of my eyebrows mean that they did a very good job. so these are my favourite of top 7.

top 6 week favourites

when Leona Lewis Bleeding Love song came out, i didn't go crazy with it; didnt like the howling part. well, more of never like howling parts - that is why i don't like country songs. after watching her live performance at American Idol, you can howl as many as you want girl!!

David Cook (music of the night) - always look forward to his performance and he did deliver tonight.

this week's songs are pretty old. so, didn't like others. only David Cook knows how to spice it up.

top 5 week favourites

David Cook (all i need is you) - mesmerized.

sorry to hear that Jason Castro (september mornin'/forever in blue jeans) is slipping down. get the steppin' Jason!!!! still need you in this competition.

Brook White (i am, i said) - her better performance

Syesha Mercado (hello again) - her performances plateaued. yes, she can sing but no variety. bored.

Dariah; 7:57 AM