Saturday, July 19, 2008
there was this one time, i asked myself "why there isn't any show for coaches? sport trainers?" you know~ something similar like "american idol", "america's next top model", "top chef".. so, how about The Best Personal Trainer or something.. hehe..
also, i envy kids going to Professional Music School (eg Raise Your Voice - starring Hillary Duff, Drumline, etc). they looked so passionate and gave their all in the movies.
then, i realised that i
am in my very own movie. i study what i love; i worked so hard every semester, i cried, stumbled down so many times, in the end i got back up again - just like in the movies.
i've always thought that my efforts were not good enough, others were brighter than me, better than me. these feelings always hold me back from being the confident-happy-go-lucky Dahriah that i used to be when i was in high school.
one moment, i realised that they are better because they have more experience and better communicator than me but that doesn't mean that i am any less good. afterall, we are all in the same University and the same class.
i think, i have to give myself credits sometimes. my parents are proud of me, Arifin is proud of me, why can't i?
i guess, when you are surrounded with great people, your specialties overshadowed by theirs. as a result, it will never be good enough.
.. just jotting down my thoughts.. :)
Dariah; 9:36 PM
