SNOW.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

note to self

1. move closer to my passion, move away from things that drained me
2. choose things that only require 20% effort and produce 80% outcome (..not the other way round)
3. list down what i've achieved instead of thinking what was lacking each day
4. no more saying "i'm the weakest in class"
5. next year aku puasa, beraya, sambut hari jadi DI BRUNEI!!
6. DAHRIAH IS GONA KICK ASS!!

Dariah; 9:25 PM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

the mentally strong people, they

1. don't show any weaknesses
2. are always in-control
3. seemed to be problem-free
4. direct people when they are lost and force them to pick-it-up when they slack
5. are solution-based
6. are task-oriented
... the list goes on...

but what happen when these mentally strong people feel that they couldn't take it? they couldn't toughen it up anymore? shouting for help but people just couldn't see it, couldn't picture the toughest man actually has weaknesses and problems that he couldn't solve?

...when the toughest man cries, what would you do? how would you react?...

Dariah; 11:25 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

when you need me, i will be there
when you texted me, i will reply immediately
when you cry, i will cry with you
when you want to run away, i will run with you
when you have problem, i will think of the solution for you
when you feel weak, i will be strong for you

...but when there is time when you texted me and i didn't reply, maybe i need you to be here with me...

a place so beautiful, peaceful.... was trying to ease my mind... but i ended up crying...

Dariah; 5:23 PM

when i'm scared...

when i'm overwhelmed...

when there was no shoulder to cry on...

when my heart screamed for help but no one could hear it...

when people made fun of me and i made a fake laugh to cover up...

when i walked away from a conversation and hyperventilating...

...that is when i cry without tears...

Dariah; 11:08 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY HJH SITI NURLIAYANA

English Lit expert you~

HAVE FUN!!

Dariah; 8:03 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

it was 8/8/8.. so today is 20/08/2008

adatah urang kawin rini jua? bakal ganya ari Rabu, mun ari Jumat atau Minggu~ gerenti ada urang kawin

Dariah; 8:47 PM

Monday, August 18, 2008

i was doing my laundry and some of my clothes i hand-washed.

glimpse of what's inside my wardrobe.

... satisfaction ...

Dariah; 1:49 PM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

:p Ron actually forgot that my birthday was on the 11th.. so she want to make it up to me tonight. she brought me to Shimizu Japanese Restaurant.. the one and only that has Japanese Buffet. it is located within Subiaco which is not that far from my place.

the cutleries are in the drowers of our table :) cutie~

our driver~ Evon

the buffet

i loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove this place... the buffet costs $42. yuph it was pretty expensive. but~ i normally spent $20-$30 at Jaws just for few small plates. so this was definitely worth the money!! for once i didn't regret feeling overly full. hehe.. seriously, i was so full until i have difficulty walking hahah~ ilang ayu ehhh

Dariah; 10:18 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIFIN

it is my Arifin's birthday :D

first episode:
i've sent him a present Tuesday last week through airmail and he received it Tuesday this week. he was supposed to get it by Friday based on my own prediction and experience of sending him stuffs. but hey~ it was all good.

i bought him a pair of Levis Jeans. apparently a new look was out and it is called White Levis. the texture, cutting and the design is clean. so i know he would like it. i also bought him a sweater to go along with it

second episode:
on birthday's eve, i phoned him :) i've compiled my thoughts over these past months and finally verbalized what i've been wanting to express when i texted him "i Love You"

final episode:
i've sent him another present last Friday and he would probably received it by Monday or Tuesday. ~~(...will update when he receives it...)~~ it was a birthday card. i wrote down what i've said to him the night before his birthday.. something is just worth saying twice and having it written

i love Arifin so dearly, i just have to do something extra special for his birthday. i am thankful to have him as my partner, so his birthday is a celebration.

Dariah; 12:00 AM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

when i had anatomy lab last Thursday, i was totally lost. for this ANHB 2213 Human Functional Anatomy unit, we study names of bones, muscles, nerves, arteries, veins and lymph nodes.. haha that is a mouthfull to say.

this was the third lab, and others pretty much geared up with infos prior to lab. i know all of the mucles and bones, but the other areas are new to me. so, this is current my problem, now it is time for solution.

back to basics. this is how i by-heart the names of muscles and bones. i guess i just have to apply the same method to study nerves, arteries, veins and lymph nodes.

overnight, i regained my confidence back. alhamdulillah

Dariah; 10:51 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008

last night, i was chit-chatting with Nyarai. towards the end of the conversation, i went blank.

Nyarai: girl, i have a cake and ice-cream for you and we are going to have them for dessert tomorrow
Me: why?
Nyarai: girl!!! you just had a birthday, and you have to have a birthday cake and ice-cream.
Me: ....i do?...
Nyarai: haha!! Dahriah!! don't be silly.

so tonight, Nyarai tagged Raawiya and Kellie along. they gave me a birthday card :D

dessert :D

Nyarai

Raawiya, Kellie

hehehe~~~ my first birthday cards and celebration after being here for over 2 years.

thanks girls!! i will treasure this :)

Dariah; 7:42 PM

Thursday, August 14, 2008

now i'm in week 3 of uni and i am drained. lots of reading, catching up, and revising need to be done.

i am already freaking out.

three weeks gone, 10 more weeks to go. sounds far? i don't think so.

glimpse on of what's ahead?
1.week 7 - test, run a seminar/workshop, tutorial presentation
2. week 10 - coaching proposal due
3. week 12 - coaching practical report and project due

accompanied with short/small assignments every couple of weeks. time management could be handy at this point!!

once you know it, exam arrives..

Dariah; 3:13 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

i went to Verve right last Monday. overall it was a good cardio workout. but it was not a good start. prior to my cardio, i had a 30 minutes session with a personal trainer, PT. i was not happy with her.

firstly, she wasn't aware of my safety. i was introduced to use this new machine call "Gravity Tension.. something" it basically works against our own body weight. so there i was having difficulty pulling my own body weight against gravity without being assisted. the PT just sat next to me, doing the same workout. c'mon!! it is PERSONAL training session. it is very 1-on-1 session with the client, weren't she suppose to be aware of my safety???

secondly, we are using our own body weight. she didn't even ask me what are the normal weight i use to lift say for lat-pull-down/tricep pushdown/bicep curls. ok, let me give an example. say i normally lift 25kg for bicep curls. for that exercise with PT that day, i was using my bodyweight which is doubled that amount. i told her that i was struggling, but she completely ignored me and simply said "6 more!!"

what if she has a client who is overweight!!

Personal Training session is all about the client doing the workout in a safe condition possible, not PT having an extra workout! what if i pull a muscle or hurt myself? i will sue her ass for sure!

Thanks to her, i couldn't go to the gym for 2 days. i was glad i extended my stretching time and did cardio so that my body was not in shock. if not i won't be able to exercise for more than 4 days.

Dariah; 8:32 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008

my 22nd birthday

i had my favourite kebab for lunch

Arifin texted me at midnight :D :D :D then, i read more texts from him at msn... i was so happy

i've decided to not keep my birthday a secret unlike lastyear. so during lunch time, i told my closest friends in St Cats. they gave me big hugs. i was in tears... hehe.. it was a pleasant feeling.

after lunch i went to Verve, i had a great 2 hours workout. then, at night it was formal hall as any other Monday nights.

when i was about to go down to the dinning hall for Formal Hall, Kelly gave me a present!! a Kenya Batik. i love it!!!

when desserts were distributed, Vanessa brought out a "22" candle and put it on top of the desserts. Vanessa, Pamela and Kelly sang happy birthday to me... heheheheheheheheheheee i was like "sssshhhhhhh keep it down..."

Dahriah, Vanessa.

gosh i was blushing!!! thanks Vanessa!!!

also, thanks to Zawanah, Nyarai, Lili, Nurul, Ly, Santy and others for the greetings!!! i appreciate it very much..

[updated]

Raawiya, new resident and my neighbour left something on my door!!

it was a birthday card and a pretty purse!! thanks girl!

the finale was chatting over the phone with Arifin. i think it was first call for this year.. i requested a song and he played the guitar :D it was a beautiful moment listening to him. definitely the highlight of today. it used to be a half-day event which now compressed to a couple of hours chat.. but its alright.. it made my night..

thanks everyone for making my 22nd birthday a sweet one.

Dariah; 7:43 PM

Saturday, August 09, 2008

day to day basis, we fight for what we want. but when we made it, what should we do next?

do we find another dream? another goal? or try to steal other people's dreams because you can? or simply because you are greedy and like to see them crashing down?

when you are on top, think whether your next action could cost you your whole accomplishment. if you take the plunge and win it, what is the difference it will give to your life. if it is minimal, don't bother going for it. eventhough it is a chance of a life time. c'mon, when you are already at the top and stabilized, what more of a 'chance of a life time' do you want now?

so know when to stop. because you might lose everything. or maybe just changed the way people look at you which as a result you might lose your market, etc.

where is this thought coming from? Project Runway Season 5 of course~

Dariah; 11:31 AM

Happy Birthday to My Brother, Darussani

His beautiful family

my bro, with wife Rahimah and lil Sophea

Sophea's baby sister Hannan

1. he inspired me to do sport, to be active, to exercise

i grew up adoring his passion in sport. he did pretty much everything; athletics, badminton, tennis, football, martial arts, sepak takraw.

while i was doing attachment at Stadium Hassanal Bolkiah, few athletes there were like "man, your brother is a fantastic runner!" "he is great"

now, he told me that he is coaching tennis. he is amazing.

2. he tought me how to eat like a lady, talk like a lady and be polite
when i was little, he was like "don't eat like that, keep your mouth close", "don't talk like that, it's not nice to call people names..."

3. he tought me about body cleanliness

he was like "always clean your earlobes, you don't want to see the cottons turn yellow". he even helped me cut my toe nails before.. hehe.. he tought me how to cut them properly.

4. he gave me tips and tricks to look good

he always look sophisticated. there was this one time he was wearing this expensive looking yellow shades. he was the first person to say to me "you don't have to buy expensive things to look good".

... have a great day dear bro... :)

Dariah; 7:52 AM

Friday, August 08, 2008

watched Olympics Opening Ceremony

the Louge that has big LCD screen tv was filled with other circle of friends so, we conquered the other area, Senior Common Room. it was good enough. great company, we had fun watching the show though out.

hehe... every computerized gadgets/stage they presented, i shouted "yeah, that's made in China right there!!"

i recon' they didn't have to spend lots of money importing goods for this event. everything is made in China for sure~~ teehee~

Dariah; 11:27 PM

a four year old girl was confronting her dad. she couldn't stand her dad's behaviour anymore.

Daughter: dad, i know when i was two i was a whiner. it was hard for me to not whine about everything. it took me two years to let it go. so father, can you please stop acting like a kid?

i love this kid.. haha~ the father is a famous phychologist. that period of time, he was dealing with depressed patients so obviously the work got into him.

Dariah; 3:43 PM

Thursday, August 07, 2008

where ever i go, what ever i do. i always feel that i am not good enough.

at uni, in St Cats, in training courses... always not in the same level with others and most of the time, i was the weakest. i have to start from square one in everything i do, when the rest has already reached halfway to begin with.

i usually beat myself to it, felt so hopeless.

then, i looked around. see and find out why they were always above me. it turned out they had more experience and mostly they were older than me.

so maybe, they have been in my situation before and now they've reached the top or more like they've reached their comfort zones.

then, makes me realise that i am actually lucky to experience these hardship at a young age.

i've been mocked, critisized, bullied, judged and pushed to the limits.

but i guess, it just makes me a better, wiser and stronger person.

Dariah; 9:38 PM

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY NURUL NAJIBAH

hehe future mechanical engineer you~~ the girlie girl who does musculine work!!

have a great day girl!!

Dariah; 8:05 PM

i was introduced to this statement today.

Critisize me, i won't listen to you
ignore me, i won't respect you
encourage me now, i will never forget you

Dariah; 2:09 PM

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

i was so thirsting this morning so i drink alot of water during lecture. 20 minutes past, i was desperately wanting to have a toilet break. since i didn't know the building that well, i just stayed on.

so when the lecture ended, i dashed outside search for female toilet.

ground floor - none.
first floor - none.

the area was not designed like a normal area. say for example, we usually see toilets of different sexes opposite each other. this place on ground floor, one toilet was at one corner. the other is at the other side. first floor, the toilet was located in the middle area.

then, when i was on the second floor.. I FOUND ONE!!! gosh people!!!! what is going on here!!! there i saw two male toilet in one floor, but ONE female toilet for the whole building???? seriously!! and there was no sign to lead me there.

the building that i am talking about is Physics building. ok fine, physics is a guy thing, but HELLO!!! not to some extend to have only one female toilet for a huge building!

Dariah; 12:49 PM

Monday, August 04, 2008

on a typical day, one person asked "how was your weekend?"

most of the time, we replied "it was horrible", "nothing much", "same all, same all"

then, the conversation ended there.

how about we approach it from different angle. how about we ask their weekend by saying "what was the best part of your weekend?"

you will be amazed how energized you feel to answer that question. also, the conversation could go on for 30minutes. isn't this great?

gradually we feel satisfied. somehow makes you think "yeah, my life isn't that bad"

eventhough that 'best part' is only a tiny thing

Dariah; 12:39 PM

Sunday, August 03, 2008

was craving for Japanese food again, so i went to Jaws.

my favourite picks

don't ask me the names because i never know.. haha~ only Ron knows.. i dined in alone today. sorry Ron i didn't call you. just thought you might be busy this week. but it awkward eating there alone, i've always dined in with Ron, always.

by the way, few days ago, i bought a big metallic bowl. i used it as a fruit basket. haha.. the bowl costs $3 so yeah..

no i didn't buy these fruits.. i got them from St Cats dining hall. we are provided with fruits every breakfast and lunch :)

Dariah; 6:56 PM

Friday, August 01, 2008

Happy belated 21st Veronica~~~

last Tuesday, we gave Veron a suprised birthday party... at her house... how??? somehow her friend from Brunei sleptover that week and given a spare key. so yeah!!! hehehe it was great fun making her blushed.

her birthday was definitely deserved to be celebrated. why? i tell something about Ron.

1. she never put herself first in the list
2. she can't say no to people
3. she is a giver
4. she is very generous
5. she cook for everyone who visits her
6. she gives great hospitality
7. she is one of the strongest women

personal reasons? when i was sick, she has always been there for me. she bought me hot food, she bought me cookies. when i was stress, she accompanied me to de-stress. when i feel down, she is always around...

... above all reason, she is a very good friend of mine. hope you had a blast lastnight Ron :)

Love
Dahriah

Dariah; 11:14 PM