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Friday, October 30, 2009

alhamdulillah, aku di beri kepercayaan lagi untuk berlakun dengan RegalBlue Production.. jadi mulai minggu dapan aku sibuk selama sebulan.. cerita apa? tunggg-Gu~~

so i will re-use my famous statement "let me check my schedule"..or.. "yeah, i think i can squeeze you in.."when you guys ask me out :D

Dariah; 1:03 AM

kamu kamu atubah...

apanah?

antah~ hahaha.. aheeee... bahapa saja ku nah? aritu aku membawai rasa yang ku-tahan-selama-2-bulan.. aheee aku SHOPPING!!! aku shopping on IMPULSE-Dahriah-Style... hehehe si Siti-lewey-si-pipi-lepew ku suruh dangani aku aritu... kesian ya melayan ulah ku.. bah, lurus time ku MoodSwing, pastu betamu dengan pelayan yang berSuruh2an... abis lah, betambah tah lagi marah ku..

but all of that changed when i stepped into EGO, MALL GADONG... huwahhhhh.. the have NewArrivals... i bought THREE long dresses and a Cardigan.. spent $150-ish there.. aheeee... then, i spent on another dress at I-Top.. aheee...

udah atu udah atu.. the next day, aku jalan sama Syam and Hjh.. si Bum inda dapat sal ia ada program udah.. lurus tah keMall kami atu lagi.. aheeeeee... KAMI-KE-EGO!!! hahaha.. ada tah lagi this New Cardigan.... ermmmm... lurus tah jua ATM baUsai malam atu.. tapi inda papa... bisuknya lagi, aku datang semula... HuuuuuwWWAAAHHHH.. aku bali lahhh.. aheeee...

had my therapy

Dariah; 12:54 AM

Friday, October 23, 2009

my hormones flipped, and i'm in massive PMS... so pissed off and let me SULK

...one once told me.. "don't think of something that we don't have"...

can i be not thinking-too-much-and-enjoy-myself for a week?

months has past.. looking up my checklist

1. Ramadhan in Brunei
2. Raya in Brunei
3. Birthday in Brunei
4. graduate
5. get a job
6. take pictures after graduation
7. spend on something special after my big pay

few has been ticked off.. others seems unreachable...

the birthday i never had
... lots of things going on, day to celebrate my birthday long overdue... the excitement has gone, decided not to have it done... how about next year you say? it is going to be during Ramadhan.. it would be difficult as well... i normally plan big events way advance, but this, i couldn't be bothered to be excited about it... shut up!!! i haven't freak'n have birthday for 4 years for heaven sake!!!!

the graduation i never had
... so yeah, i have graduated.. a normal degree i explained to people.. i went to friend's, relative's homes they have their pictures taken, proudly hung them on the living room wall... me? i haven't... i believe their relatives got excited and wanted to join the photoshoot... me? no one approached me and ask...i don't have the drive to take out my graduation wrobe...

the spending habits i used to have
... so shopping is the best therapy.. should i say 'was'... eversince i have a job.. i don't have the luxury to shop with a smile... 'i can't buy that, i have to save up to pay my bills, my car'... i couldn't even freak'n enjoy my body treatment thinking about how much it cost!!

brain is fucked up
punching mirror

Dariah; 7:58 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

these past few days i have been accompanying Hjh; processing her job placement. it is a privileged to be her Moral Support and as a source of information.

the pathway to my degree, the brick-by-brick staircase that leads me to my dream.. most of the time i didn't follow anyone's footsteps, i made my own track.. i don't follow the usual i-will-cross-the-bridge-when-i-get-there.. i would like to be fully equipped, mentally ready and to have a stable network. so my planning to where i am now started few months before A level exams.

few months before A level, i submitted a Voluntary Attachment letter to Ministry of Culture, Youth and Sport. i was put under Physiotherapy Unit, Stadium. so that year (2005), i had my last A level paper on Thursday, i officially started my attachment on Saturday that same week. i was attached there for 3 months.

whilst i was there, it magnifies and polishes my interest towards Sport Science. it made me think that Sport Scientist would be a good profession.

as i was still doing my 3-year-degree, i did another two attachments.. by having these experiences, they help me narrow down my objectives, clarify my vision and self-discover my own Niche..

some of my experiences and most of them from oversea, i've learnt the hard way... tears and hardship, loneliness and pain, no shoulder to cry on, no hands to hold.. so if someone ask for a hand, i will give both of my hands.. because i couldn't bare to let them walk the same road.. if possible, they should worry about something else and channel their energy towards more important areas..

one may approach me and ask "you went through all that, massive planning, stable network, and all you get is a Teacher"

my job seems so low class to majority's eyes; seems that all hardship and networks i've made ended up leading me to Typical Job.. all i can say, alhamdulillah... this is where my journey starts

kerjaku melibatkan banyak tanggungjawab,
menjaga anak2 beratus urang,
bisai ulah ku, bisai jua durang beradab,
mun beratus2 atu jua bisai, lahirlah bangsa yang berguna..

bukan menyatakan aku akan jadi guru terunggul,
guru yang terbaik..
bukan niat untuk di Galati..
hanya ingin diberi pengiktirafan,
ini tugas ku, pendidik anak2 kamu..
bah apa NyangKu aritu?
mun berani jadi CIGU

namun,
berhari2 tugas ku di pandang rendah,
hati hanya mampu berdoa,
biarkan di pandang rendah,
asalkan aku banyak masa lapang,
asalkan ku inda banyak utang, UDAH...
ee'eeee berchan-da la pula'... hehe

Dariah; 9:47 PM

kamu-kamu... atubah..

kadang2, kelas2 student ani baJurit bah.. balum bersapu, inda tersusun rapi.. macam2 lah.. lapas atu, penYapu durang lagi membari kesian, ada yang patah.. ada rambutnya bee-yut..

sekali iiiiiiingaaaaat tah ku time2 ku di SMJA lagi (hahaha bila jua inda~)

atubah, ingat kamu (Bis-Gadis-ku) time di SMJA, segala penYapu, penYi-yut, baldi mem-Mop (ehem2 yang berOda).. aku bali sendiri... rasakan mau kelas ku bersih dulu..

kamas atu lagi, mun aku jaga-hari, awal ku datang sebelum urang lain datang.. sebelum matahari naik bah ku datang sekulah ahh.. rasa kan sampat mem-mop sama awal karing supaya inda kamah time2 urang2 lain datang..

dua-kali-nya.. durang di STPRI ani (yang kelas ku pigang lah) mana ada JAGA-HARI ani, nada nyapu2 pagi2 ahh.. asal saja ku masuk kelas ba-ju-rit.. kusut ku.. jadi apa lagi.. ku suruh lah durang bersihkan kelas... hehehe...

mun aku jenis student yang 'catu2' dulu.. i expect my students jadi 'catu2' jua.. hehe..

Dariah; 9:00 AM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

aheeee... aku haru~

tadi patang aku stay-back.. sekali adatah Form-Class-students ku datang.. durang minta ajar maths sikit2.. sekali kan~ hehe one of them bawakan makanan... NYAAAAMMMAAAANNNN...

aku kana bawakan kelupis sama cacahNya... kata student "ani mamaku bawakan untuk teacher"

huwahhhhh... hehehe.. bah, selalu2 tah ku stay back ehh.. teehee..

Dariah; 10:09 PM

i just had a class with year 7. i want my class to be productive by all means necessary, so i was looking at their MATHS results that was posted on their notice board.

some of them did poorly in Maths, so i shared some tips with them..

me: for studying math effectively and efficiently, i would suggest you to have small pieces of paper, stapled them together, write down all the formula from your notebook.

some of them as usual didn't want to follow my method and couldn't be bothered. but a few girls actually carried-out my method there-and-then.. i was really impressed..

there were these 2 girls didn't just do what i just said, they actually have coloured papers and make them look better.. very good.

moments after, i randomly asked the students who didn't study maths

me: Girl, tell me what is the formula of the Circumference of a Circle?
girl: i don't know

then i explained to the rest class that it is beneficial and time-efficient if they have all the formula in a piece of paper for reference; it doesn't matter that they haven't memorize them yet.. as long as it is infront of them and see it more frequent as they revise.. i am sure they will eventually know them by-heart.

Cinta Lama

Dariah; 9:43 AM

dear oh dear..

Form 3 STPRI students have started their PMB last week.. they all looked 0verly-worked-out-memorizing-word-by-word-from-the-book. not that i fancy the method they use, i just like the fact that they are actually 'studying'

so here is the deal, i take care of year 7, 8, and form 4 students. so their exams start as follows:

year 7 - 31/10/09
year 8 - 19/10/09
Form 4 - 26/10/09

unfortunately, my students haven't got the eyebags, have the worried-WornOut look.. so it is my responsibility to FreakThemOut.. :D :D

so i asked

1. when is your exam?
2. what day is today?
3. how many school days left till your exam?
4. how many subjects do you have?
5. how many days are you going to study for ONE subject?
6. how many topics are there in ONE subject?

say, they answered 10 (school) days till exam, 8 subjects, 7 topics

me: so how many days are you going to study for ONE subject if you have 10 days left?

lo and behold one student took out a calculator and pressed 10 divide by 8.. HAHAHAHHA!!!

me: ok, say you finish school 12.30, then you go to Ugama, get home after 5, stuck in traffic.. have dinner, take a shower.. you will be ready to study by 8..

me: so what time you go to bed?
students: at 9, 10, or maybe midnight..
me: ok, say you go to bed at 10.. so you only have TWO hours each day to study..

i continued

me: if you have only ONE day to study ONE subject, and ONE subject has 7 topics.. how are you going to finish going through ALL of them in TWO hours?

hehehheee.. that surely freaked them out..

Dariah; 8:46 AM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

so today is 10/10/09.. this day next year insyaAllah i will be someone's fiancee :D (after so long being someone's girlfriend) :P ..

and the rest of the events are going to be held November NEXT YEAR insyaAllah.. the dates are comfirmed but i need to get my parents to do some important bookings first, then i will share it with you guys :)

Dariah; 11:43 PM

aku ada liat iklan "mabuk estrogen".. first reactionKu.. eeeee apa ni Estrogen Estrogen..

sekali ada main tadi.. meliat jua ku, ku-ri-us jua ku.. rupanyaaaaaa....

CaaAAAAALLLLLiiiiii hahahahaha.. i don't mind watching it again on TV...

(note: yang melimpang atu pundan... impianNya: mendapatkan ciuman yang menakjubkan dari lelaki tulin hahahaha) iatah, time si Pundan angan2 Cali-terGuring-Limpang..

Dariah; 11:32 PM

Si syam be'Kamban' di-sebab-kan budak2 ini

hahahaha~ kami kajutkan si syam malam atu..

patang atu Hjh sama Bum datang kerumah ku.. pastu kami meronda2 cari cake Blueberry Cheesecake...

dalam kul 5.30 balik kerumah ku, kami start kumpul2-kan gambar2 syam sama kami dari tahun 99~ awu... sepuluh taun yang lalu~ inda caya? tuuuu liat saja aribulan rah gambar ahhh.. ada gambar kami scan sama ada gambar2 yang dalam laptop udah..

inda ku mau liatkan versi Video.. versi Video untuk mata yang terlatih saja buleh meliat.. hahaha~ *chicken dance*

so syam, the main reason why i insist on making that CD (ambitious as the girls told me)... is for you to find the HAPPY-ness inside of you, the joyful person that i once knew...

no matter what, you always have that 'split' seconds to smile on camera

as years past by, the four (out of 7) of us become so close...

unseparable, even oceans couldn't set us apart

and, we always go back to where our friendship started

i dedicate my blog song to you... was planning to put that song into the Video but unfortunately i couldn't do it that day...

"ingati tatkala... dirimu riang ceria"
take care Syam

i love my girls
this post goes to Hjh and Bum too :)
each and one of you are equally important to me

Dariah; 11:31 PM

Tung-GuUUUUUUuuuu...

Happy
Birthday
Dearest
Syamsina

the cake represents:

Hajah
Bum
Dahriah
Syamsina

Dariah; 7:54 AM

Friday, October 09, 2009

pagi atu aku kana suruh bali makanan tengahari untuk urang rumah.. oleh kerana aku inda mau merasakan ke-sunyi-an di pagi hari, aku bawa hjh~ hehe

tatabahasa di pagi hari:
aku: kau sudah sarapan?
hjh: iataaaa, aku laparrrr membali tadi ku di kadai, membali meehhh (.... ceritaNya makin panjang niii...)... aku suka tu sarapan..
aku: di mana ko mau?
hjh: di mana ko suka?

cis, soalan atas soalan.. hahaha...

kami kembali ke Liur-Melayu (eh, makanan melayu kan ni? hahaha)

aku: Dosai Telur satu
hjh: ahhhhh Dosai ada talur juWa~~~

hehehe.. mengenyangkan Dosai ahhh.. sye-ok makan.. pastu inda keUtak membayar tadi.. ahee..

Dariah; 12:50 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAMSINA a.k.a Me-La-Ti

kau lah si bungsu di antara kami TheFantasticFour
kekeke

Dariah; 9:34 AM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

alhamdulillah.. something happened today..

i went to my class this morning, class 4F. it was finally my first time entering their PE class. i absolutely adore this class. they were very responsive; every question i asked they answered with confidence, within seconds. it was a delightful class to have. how i wish i could run an actual class just now.

one student in particular, she asked me numerous questions. she has this immense interest about myself. as i was feeding her curiosity, my vision of the future slowly rise from the shadows. the vision, hopes and dream i progressively built when i was still fighting for my degree has came back to me and reminded me that it is time to take actions.

after few conversations with the other students, i came up with a little project that i wish to conduct towards the end of their academic year. gosh, this class is so beautiful.. i left this class with happiness and i can finally say 'i am looking forward to go to work tomorrow because i have these wonderful kids'...

now i finally understood the statement '...what motivates us to achieve our goal is YOU'

this class inspires me
loving it

adakah mungkin GURU adalah takdirKU
adakah mungkin sifat ITU telah sedia ada dalam diri
jikalau YA alhamdulillah, telah ku fahami tanggungjawabku
jikalau YA, akan ku jalani dengan sekuat hati

Dariah; 8:25 PM

kamu kamu.. atubah.. tadi aku masuk Form Class ku.. class PE durang andang aku punya.. baru tah kan sampai2nya kan masuk time PE durang.. sal selalunya ada function tia, ada cuti tia.. anyway~ atubah.. durang ku suruh buat keraja masing2 lah.. sekali kan semua urang buat homework Maths ani bah.. hahaha

eeee... aku dulu suka tu ku Maths ahh.. eh, cinta ku tu Maths ahhh.. asal saja liat soalan Maths, aku senyum... makan minum ku tu... banyak lagi perbelanjaan ku untuk menyenangkan cara2 ku untuk belajar Maths... segala geometry set, manada yang cam simple2 warna kuning ijau merah atu.. aku punya yang detache-able screw2 punya, cam barang urang architech... pastu garisan yang curvey2... pastu pastu, garisan yang ada macam2 bulatan...

eee.. aku punya geometry set bukan saja satu tu ku bawa ke sekulah.. ada 3 set tu... aku mikirkan kawan2 ku yang lain, manatau durang ketinggalan ka apa.. bah, cana tah jua.. mun sorang baTinggalan, bising Teacher kami... baik tah ada spare banyak2.. abis cerita.. atu jua.. mun kawan2 baTinggalan barang2 yang lain.. selalu durang cakap "tanya si Dah, ada tu ya bawa".. hahahha.. begku "poket-doremon".. segala gunting, gam, colour pensil.. macam2 lah.. hahaha.. eh baik inda basar beg ku dulu atu ah? (pikir-pikir)

eeee.. atu lagi, aku bawa peraut pensil basar bah ke sekulah.. ukan peraut yang bulat yang buleh masuk dalam beg pensil atu.. yang basar simpan atas meja ahh.. warna merah kuning lagi tu.. (eh ingat aku ahh).. supaya time aku lukis2, measure2 'length' accurate berabis lah.. apatu topicNya ah? "LOCI?", "LOCUS?" kali jua lah..

man, looking at my students doing Maths, it gives me the rush.. the feeling of confidence "yes, i am good at that, still am, and i excelled in that when i was in your position"...

:) aku-suka-math
heheh ada urang kanyat2 ni~ sal ia dari dulu inda suka math
hahaha~ siapa tu ah?
kalau berani tampilkan diri~
kekeke

Dariah; 8:03 AM

Saturday, October 03, 2009

arini Sambutan Hari Raya di Sekulah :) :) aku iski

Dahriah, Fatimah

Siti, Ratna, Dahriah

atubah, lain rasaku time awal2 atu, aku pikir duduk di lantai bah.. macam time2 aku di SMJA dulu.. eh auwah~ aku Teacher kali udah ah~ aheeee... teacher2 duduk di kerusi.. sekali aku atu "eh, iatah rasanya jadi cigu ni time2 ada acara~" :D

lapas atu inda ku biasa meliat bini2 ganya murid2nya di dewan

pastu durang ani 'upgrade' lagi dari kami dulu.. changgih udah camera durang

atu lagi, inda ku biasa meliat cigu laki2nya pun sedikit

she-yok lah performance raya tadi, ada urang di pentas nyanyi2, sekali murid2 di bawah pun ramai2 nyanyi... sporting jua tu durang ahh.. ayun2 lagi tu badan durang ikut melodi... macam ombak durang tadi serantak usulnya... aku apa lagi.. haru lah ku meliat~ pastu pastu.. cigu2nya byk buat video2 raya.. cali2 lah.. iatah ganya masanya cigu2 buleh baUlah tampa kana marahi.. hahaha.. rasanya macam HariGuru pulang eh.. hmmm tarus kali..

lapas acara di dewan.. bisCigu beraya ke Kelas2 murid

begitu banyak jenis 'mee' lahh..

ani Form Class ku.. bisMurid yang malar ku tagur (marahi) pagi2.. ehehe.. taguran membina lah, bukan marahi inda pedah2... (ehem2 ada watak macam teacher Paridah? hahaha)

bah, cuba kamu teka.. mana satu murid, mana satu cigu ni???

ada kelas durang atu, macam catering bah..

eeee... ada lagi chocolate fundue tu!!! apa nyangku durang ani~ 'upgrade' bah durang ah~

durang punya fashion lagi kalah bisCigu

i can easily blend in with the students~

ani murid yang baUlah sikit.. hehe nada wah.. durang ani bisai pulang.. dalam kelas ganya durang beGauk..

eh kamu kamu.. durang inda baTudong ani bah, ingat kamu geng2 time di SMJA, siapa2 yang inda baTudong atu ahh?? hahaha..

eee.. aku happy berabis lah tadi.. cam time di dewan atu, aku nangis ketawa2 ani bah meliat video2 yang kana mainkan.. syok eh syok eh..

atu bah jua, aku selalunya pakai kasut sport time ku keraja.. sipun tah ku pakai baju kurong.. eee tapi kasut sport ku yang MBT.. bukan yang sport biasa2... anyway~ iatah teChangang murid2 meliat aku pakai 4" heels atu.. hahaha..

suka raya :)

Dariah; 11:00 PM

Friday, October 02, 2009

aheeee... ermmmm hari raya ke berapa ni ah??? hahaha yang penting aku beraya sama gadis2ku dan Arifin :)

bersama teacher Paridah (sama masih usulnya teacher ahh)