Tuesday, September 07, 2010
before school holiday, i take the initiative to ask some of the students
Me: napa baju sekulah mu pindik ani kan?
girl: (silent)
Me: baju pindik, kain lagi jarang inda makai skirt dalam. what are you trying to do? kalau kamu kana kacau macamana?
i am sure they don't know why i am acting like that, why i was being a NutHead, or an Annoying Discipline Teacher. sayang ku kan durang ani banarnya... damit2 sudah cana ulahnya... sudah basar macamana?
Alhamdulillah i was a busy girl when i was in their age: mengaji jumat minggu, wearing tudong since i was Primary 1. aku ikut pertandingan Nasyid, Muratal, Dzikir...
i remember when i was still little, my mum force me to read the first page of surah Al-Baqarah, i was shaking, i was scared, i cried, because i didn't know how to read Al-quran.. but once i know how, it felt great...
i know for some other families have different upbringing, different lifestyle, but ISLAM hanya SATU..
there are reasons why hukum2 di adakan. when i read the previous post about Mandi Wajib, i cried... i said to myself "Ya Allah, how am i going to tell this to others?"
with a troubled mind, i asked a wise person. one's said
apa rukun Iman kitani?
- percayakan Allah inda?
- percayakan Al-quran inda?
from there, i realised.. segala yang di tetapkan adalah dari Allah, dan ada tertulis di dalam Al-Quran.. jadi, kalau durang inda percayakan akan apa yang di larang bermaksud mereka tidak percayakan Allah dan Al-quran? Na'uzubillah Ya Allah
once that came into my mind, my heart just sink. i was in tears... i wasn't worried about others, i was concern about myself, seandainya aku masih serba kekurangan, personality seorang Muslim belum kukuh dalam diri.. jadi siapa kah aku ingin menegur orang lain, sedangkan aku sendiri kurang sempurna
Dariah; 12:25 PM
