Thursday, December 21, 2006
*sigh*
it has been 40 days since i got back from Australia. i have some ups and downs... but mostly downs...
there was this one afternoon, i sat alone in my room... was trying to give a peacefull moment for myself...
i realised... when i am here in Brunei... i give happiness to my parents, to my girls, to my boyfriend, to my siblings.... i keep on giving and giving even though i am not asked to do so. now, i have nothing left to give... maybe its time for me to receive... i don't know~~
its hard to lose weight this time... because my "me" time is no longer mine... when i am this big, i don't feel loved... less attractive and not interesting...
*sigh* too sad to continue
Dariah; 12:16 PM