as promise, the few posts today are the agenda for the past two weeks.

last week, i had a serious talk with Arifin, he mentioned about my 'unlike' Dahriah's behaviour that i wasn't the woman he used to know; the woman he used to adore, the lady in me that caught his eyes. i cried when he used the word "used to". i hurt his feelings so many times due to my careless mistakes. i took advantage of some of his approvals. i have to say that night, i could sense that he was about to give up on me; letting me go. it was really undescribably horrifying moment. i cried a river. it was hard for him to trust me - give me another chance (after lots of chances) - that night. long story short. i promise him i will find this woman he fell in love with years ago. i promise to take care of his feelings as he take care of mine.

few days later, on monday, i started to wear tudong and wore lady-like outfit. actually it was kind off like an experiment. as i was walking to the dining hall that day, i saw a reflection of this beautiful, a sight for sore eyes lady next to me. MASYA ALLAH. that was me!!! as i cycled to uni, i felt so wonderful; smiled most of the time, kept a cool head. i felt happy-go-lucky me again. the thing is, at first it was an experiment; insearch of my inner-self. i was loving what i felt that day. I'VE FOUND HER. abang, i've found her. i'm not doing this just for show that i am Dahriah that i used to be. within me also glad to find the her; feel like her again. the way i talk to people also toned down like before. alhamdulillah.

welcome back Dahriah, sayang abang