Monday, June 29, 2009
as always, one night, one moment
i'm inspired.. always happened after midnight.. here it goes~
bila minda bermain kataself always wants to make sense of everything
self believes impossible is nothing
one question came up: to what extend? who am i to reach the sky?..
my initial thought: i wasn't good enough
not good enough to pat myself
then, i realized
my deepest fear is not that i'm inadequate
my deepest fear is the power beyond imagine
the power once unleashed comes with a big responsibility
the attention that requires constant perfection..
will i be able to put up with that?
will i then fear of being inadequate?
i am the person who always finishes everything she started
the next question raised: will i start this new journey?
the journey where there is possibly no ending..
i've been a student for 17 years
there were always exams towards the end of each academic year
how about in real life? as a worker?
will i be the type of worker that stays in one job until she retired?
will i be that person who chose comfort over self-satisfaction?
fear nothing
except the feeling of fear itself
the feeling of fear within that holds you back
normally i keep my 'special' poem-like thoughts
write it down in my 'special' book
decided to share it tonight :)
Dariah; 1:56 AM
