Friday, October 23, 2009
my hormones flipped, and i'm in massive PMS... so pissed off and let me SULK
...one once told me..
"don't think of something that we don't have"...
can i be not thinking-too-much-and-enjoy-myself for a week?
months has past.. looking up
my checklist1. Ramadhan in Brunei
2. Raya in Brunei
3. Birthday in Brunei
4. graduate
5. get a job
6. take pictures after graduation
7. spend on something special after my big pay
few has been ticked off.. others seems unreachable...
the birthday i never had... lots of things going on, day to celebrate my birthday long overdue... the excitement has gone, decided not to have it done... how about next year you say? it is going to be during Ramadhan.. it would be difficult as well... i normally plan big events way advance, but this, i couldn't be bothered to be excited about it... shut up!!! i haven't freak'n have birthday for 4 years for heaven sake!!!!
the graduation i never had... so yeah, i have graduated.. a normal degree i explained to people.. i went to friend's, relative's homes they have their pictures taken, proudly hung them on the living room wall... me? i haven't... i believe their relatives got excited and wanted to join the photoshoot... me? no one approached me and ask...i don't have the drive to take out my graduation wrobe...
the spending habits i used to have... so shopping is the best therapy.. should i say 'was'... eversince i have a job.. i don't have the luxury to shop with a smile... 'i can't buy that, i have to save up to pay my bills, my car'... i couldn't even freak'n enjoy my body treatment thinking about how much it cost!!
brain is fucked up
punching mirror
Dariah; 7:58 PM
