Thursday, August 07, 2008
where ever i go, what ever i do. i always feel that i am not good enough.
at uni, in St Cats, in training courses... always not in the same level with others and most of the time, i was the weakest. i have to start from square one in everything i do, when the rest has already reached halfway to begin with.
i usually beat myself to it, felt so hopeless.
then, i looked around. see and find out why they were always above me. it turned out they had more experience and mostly they were older than me.
so maybe, they have been in my situation before and now they've reached the top or more like they've reached their comfort zones.
then, makes me realise that i am actually lucky to experience these hardship at a young age.
i've been mocked, critisized, bullied, judged and pushed to the limits.
but i guess, it just makes me a better, wiser and stronger person.
Dariah; 9:38 PM
